Okay.....i'm like trying my very best to be back to normal but i guess it didn't really succeed. I very sad. I gonna give up liao so can i beg u to like return back to me ( its just something that makes me wanna cry but its ok. Its fine if u dun understand cos i dun think anyone will get it either) I tried to return back to my normal person but too many things happened today that i cannot return back. I am really damn sad but no one ever knows why am i like so sad cos i didn't tell anyone the real truth. Even if i told u something about my family matters, i didn't tell it all. Cos they won understand the pain that i am going through now. I realise that my post are getting very very upsetting each and every time. I use to be so cheerful ok maybe not but i used to like think positively but now.....never. I use to post about happy stuff cos everyday, there is happy things but now.....never..... i dare not tell anyone how i feel as..... i dun know. Maybe i will break down or maybe i feel that i shouldn't tell them the real truth cos i feel that its my problem so i shouldn't bother them and i feel that i rather cry to myself. So....ya. Never mind. I think that u must be like huhing at what am i writing about but dun need to worry lah. U do not need to crack ur brains to think about what exactly happened cos u will never get what exactly happened. I didn't show any vast emotions to anyone that's why. So.....ya. I tried to control what am i suppose to control le so dun blame me for being very weird in class these few days cos something made me real sad that all of u all do not know of it so.....ya. I will update again next time cos i am really dead after my oral.