Haha thats what esther says and its really true. Although we say we wont give in anymore but in the end, we still do it. Why? cos we are nice people. hah joking. Actually its becos we i dunno how to say...but its just although we dun want to put in anymore effort cos we know its not worth but we still put in. Ya. Drill was as usual. Saw that panda face hippo like lotsa times. Got really pissed. I mean if she thinks im that sort of person, then i cant say anything or do anything. Its her business whether she wants to take me like this or not rite....so i ignored her like lotsa times today, like purposely walking off when she saw me and walked towards me, hoping that i could help her with some gb matters. I mean like come on la.....if u arent happy with me, why not u juat go straight down to HQ and tell the officers there that i have attitude problems and why not let them kick me out of DI. That would make ur life easier and make mine easier too. Why not just spare me from all these? Kicking me out before i collect the badge, its better. At least i dun have the badge now, its less disappointing. Maybe its totally my fault, my fault for letting u think that im that sort of person, letting u dashed my hopes on myself, and letting me realise how a failure i am. Sorry for letting me know that i failed to be a DI, a commander and even a gb girl. sorry. Among the 3 DIs now, i could consider myself to be fortunate? I dunno. One is in GOH contingent and another is commanding as the stick. Thanks for letting me know that i suck in drill and so much so that i have to march in a contingent. But maybe that would make my life easier cos i suddenly realised how fun was it that i dont have to be so fierce to them and did my drill like how i did in stage one. Sorry that i failed to meet up to ur standard, sorry that i failed to correct my attitude and sorry that i became a DI when i shouldnt have. sorry. Its my fault. I caused them for myself. im sorry.