So as u can see, today isn't my day. Today sucked. A BIG TIME! Both cca and school just went wrong.
School----------well not really but still is bad
Chemistry: i couldn't understand the new teacher. full stop.
English: I SCREW UP MY CREATIVE COMPONENT. Everyone couldn't remember our lines. Hence it somehow got mixed up and so the next person who is suppose to talk didnt know what to say. Hence it was a complete screwed up skit. And thanks to me, i couldn't remember my lines, there was a sudden pause. Last time also becos of me, this time is still becos of me. Sorry guys. Im so gonna prepare damn freaking early for the next creative component okay. I hate last minute preparations! And becos we rushed the script through, we didnt have time to practice. Ya so i screwed up creative component.
Math: I was so proud of myself that i could actually concentrate so well today during class. I kept so quiet for an entire period and just sat right there and did my maths! AHHHHH and time passed so quickly. I screwed up this term's maths. Im so gonna be a good girl and do lots of maths practices.
CCA----------
Evrything went wrong. I hate myself.
Prayer meeting: Since the sec 4s step down, the sec 3s step up. Ya. And then no one listened to them. People were like talking among themselves instead of praying and laughing when we were supposed to sing songs. They have no freaking respect for the in-charge. So, no one listens. And even the in-charge were late for prayer meeting. So, everything was done badly and ended so early.
DRILL: It just freaking pissed me off okay! Took stage 2 with jolene. I was so freaking nice to the contingent. Like REALLY REALLY NICE TO THEM! I gave them 3 water breaks while the others only have 2. I joke with them while they did drill, which was so freaking unlike me. Even jolene said that i was so damn lenient to them today. And what kind of attitude did they give me? So what if u guys are tired? U think we guys have not gone through such drills before? U think our commander was that lenient to us? NEVER EVER. U guys said that ur were tired, hence ur don't want to hentak. Fine. I let u guys sit down. Im being so freaking nice today that even me myself cannot believe it. Even mr teo walked past and was like: whao sheryl, im surprised that u didnt scream at them today. When ur drills isn't up to standard, i didnt even semula u all. I just continued. And occassionally, jolene will nudged me and say that their bangs are not good esp ____ then i will go like: why not u tell them? Then she says: dun want lah. Later they say i mean, u help me say. Like HALO? what do u take me for? So if i say it for u, that means people will think that im so freaking mean and u are always the nice one. Ya thanks so much. I was so stupid to not realise it till someone came up to me and brought it up to me. And so i told contingent: okay that was not a nice bang. And someone just came up to me and said that i was very mean to say that. ok so next time, i shall not say anything else. Maybe they just havent learnt that my commanders say things like: Sheryl Ho! What kind of drill is this?! Like they straight away call out ur name in front of the entire contingent to scold me. Yep. I dun embarrass anyone by calling off their names. I say on a whole. And the worst is that: i hate being used. Used just becos u need to hold ur reputation up high in the sky. And people just thinks that im plain mean becos im helping u convey ur words. So u are nice and im mean. Anyway, who cares? Mean. So? Being such 'nice' person cant get u far.
Leaders drill: sat down with chinyee. And nicole. And realised and concluded that our captain doesnt like us except for those that look so responsible. she told chinyee that she is very bad and wants her to go and die. I mean....which captain will say that just becos u dun really fancy a small girl? U cant based on her studies to foresee that she cant take on roles in cca. Come on la. Thats not the way of setting a good example. And i cant believe that in sec 1, i have always thought u were nice. Till i came to sec 2, i realised that u were so biased and basically u suck larh. Then bianca just called me over to do drill. Then i felt so happy being in a contingent. At least u dun get to see attitudes. And ya felt so relieved. At least that just calmed me down. Bianca was nice and kept joking with me like damn funny. And she gave us break and was so damn late. 6 minutes? And she ticked us off. And she was being so nice that she didnt make us do punishment. I was like heng arh......... And shannon was so freaking tired. She and rachel finally saw how fierce my commanders were to us. Yup. We can consider scolding and screaming at us as being really really lenient. Yup and then i went home.
I miss jie so much. She called yesterday and said she is leaving soon. I was like omg. And i suddenly had so many questions to ask her but i just cannot. Today's drill sucked so much. I need help from her. Many people thinks she is fierce but shes not lorh. I really need her help. i am going to bugg her after her midyears. And she is always there to help me when things have gone wrong. Now that our company is not doing well, shes not able to help becos of exams. I need her to come back soon.
Ya. So today isnt my day. It didnt go well at all.
dear lord,
i pray for a better day tomo.
in jesus name i pray, amen.