Its just one more day to EOYs. So i shall say my piece here before i get off the comp for days. Or should i say weeks? I dunno. Well, i like today's sermon. Its not abt the naked part:). But its just trusting god enough that he will make all things possible. Well, paster Reuben spoke abt how a prayer can help. People flipping over the paper hastily when the invigilator says start and there he was, praying for a good few minutes.
So today was kinda tensed, could feel the exam mood coming. Well, its just tomo.
I shall not say much.
I WILL GET OFF THE COMP. no facebook, no blogger, no nothing.
Maybe a short update soon. If i find time during the weekends. :)
JIAYOU everyone!
SEE YA.

Well, i am still at Li Tong's house doing a ad for DNT. Well, it was really fun esp when i embarrassed myself just now. And we must really thank Li Tong for her time and her house for today. And we NG alot of times today. HAHA.
Owells, a proper update soon:)
Pictures will be uploaded soon.
Just wait and see:DDD
HEHE
Till then'

The game of acceptance. Whether i want to accept it or not, its no longer a choice. The disappointment that comes by again. Knowing that you were the one, just made me realised that i lost a good friend. Knowing you for quite awhile. The times spent, those memories, based on what i know, you werent that sort. Now that everything changed overnight, i really want you to return back to what you were in the past so that i can still understand you. I am really really really sad to find out this truth and i just want you to know that its wrong. Sometimes, knowing the truth hurts.
I am so very tired. So please spare me the agony. please?
Today was okay. But i just wanna say something to a friend that im really care for. This post is dedicated to you, so you better feel honoured okay.
First things first. I am so sorry to make you cry today. I didnt mean it. And i just wanna tell you that: dun be sad. Even if you are, all your friends, family is there for you. They are always there to support you and to share the pain with you. So you are not facing all these problems alone. Never were you all alone in all these. If you think life is unfair, well i just have to say that: it was never fair. Problems set in so that we learn to be stronger day by day. So i just want you to cheer up and yeah~ HAHA wait arh....i lost for words. To tell you the truth, when i saw ur hidden tears this morning, i was really sad. I know i will never understand the pain that you are facing but those tears that i saw was so saddening. And dun ponder too much about it kay.
Wells, i should talk to you another time. I find it hard to express my words, my thoughts, my everything today. Monday then. Dun keep it inside you, you can talk to any of us. We will always be your listening ear:)
OWELLS, today im sick. Fell asleep during CME test. Slept for half an hour or so. Was feeling terrible but didnt want to go home. So tried to save energy by keeping quiet. I am lazy to sum up my day so i shall just put it this way: happy but yet unhappy. Guofang's philosophy: dun emo, later become emu. HAHA.
Till then'

Ohwells, its 7 more days. Today we had lotsa fun thanks to litong the joker. She was really really entertaining. So, we managed to do up our script. And yeah~ Was fun with her lame jokes around. And im running a temperature and a cough. Weekends coming. I cant wait.

I feel some sense of accomplishment. Cos my group manage to do up another piece of our product in just 30 mins. wow. We worked so well uh? Jealous not? -.-
HAHA well me and litong were thinking about those times we were so stressed up for dnt cos she kept rejecting our idea. Like 7 times? The feeling was crap. Cos we actually did research and all the sketchings and she just told us that she didnt want this idea. And we were like: damn you larh. HAHA Owells, now, we thought it was quite funny though. We all had fun cos all of us 'love' litong's lame joke. Chinese was surprisingly fun today. Dunno why. I was falling asleep at first till she told us to get into pairs to do a grp activity. So me and calista paired up and we had to come up with a adv. for the shui jing pao. And that da fei zhu thought it was a jewel and did not understand why that old woman was eating a jewel. Wth. And she kept saying its the same as a dumpling. Whapiangeh. And i owe her 2 and a poke. And so our adv. was ahem. One word: lame. Lame until people laugh. But humin was happy with it.
Then looked for the sec 1s. Shannon was awfully pissed. Well, they'll learn someday.
Till then.

HELLO. TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF TERM 4. And yep. Dragged myself to school. And i am tired after a hot long day yeah. I think PE is hilarious. Rachel couldnt stop falling. Like for consecutively 5 times??? Oh man....funny much. Ok, i promise to get off the computer at 4. HEH and now its going 4. I shall stop here.
BYES. will update soon if i find time:)

Its been forever.
I just realised that i have been studying for life.
And now that im tired of it.
Not becos its hard or whatever.
Its more of the countless disappointments that i will get everytime results comes back to me.
Speaking of confidence and authority.
Frankly speaking, i have non of those.
It was meant to be put on show during cca.
But what i am really is,
is the total opposite.
I remember my mom used to suan me when i have such remarks on confidence and all.
She was like : yeah~ RIGHT~
Now, its already the last lap. And im tired.
And i believe everyone is. Who's not?
But will i get what i want?
I remember i cried there and then during drill competition.
Cos i finally got what we all wanted. It didnt come so easily.
I remember how i nearly got paralysed then.
Right before we even started, i had much difficulty in walking and standing up
Let alone marching and all.
HAHA i remember how painful those moments were.
And now, i have to put things aside and really study.
Easier said than done huh.
But i will try.

Well, yetserday was okay. Went to holland v. Met lionel there. Nothing much. Came home, revised. Talked. And slept at 1 plus. Read your last sms. Nearly cried. But theres nothing much i can do. I felt lost. But its okay.
Today im so gonna finish with my geog. Yep, nothing much.
bye bye.

My mom woke me up early today. Cos shes going for massage with pa at 'the ultimate'. Somewhere located at orchard. So i went with them and waited in the changing room for 1.5 hours? And i fell asleep though. And i kept eating and sleeping and eating and sleeping. Cos they keep serving me desserts.:DDD Then shopped. Then went to visit YSL perfume in TANGS once again. OMG i love them okay. How i wished i had a bottle of it....but i only had a paper of it. And my left arm is aching badly. I remember wenhui was pestering me to hurry up when i was accessing the very last part yesterday. And my brain wouldnt want to function properly and i asked jolene what the hell is a thumb?? Lmao. Cos on the paper, it states thumb interlocked and fingers straightened. And ek was being really sick cos when she saw the phrase "body erect and shoulders held back" she was like aye, can you cancel that word out or not huh? Whapiangeh. Sicko. And i finally found my long lost anklet. YAY!
Shall end here-

I woke up at 6.10 cos my mom woke me up late. Then i bathed and changed into full-u. I was sleeping while changing okay. SO tiring luh. Then took bus to sch. Reached and took the clipboard. I was tearing. i dunno why. i think i kept yawning. Then i saw sec 1s falling in. Whoa to early huh. Then me and dionne decided to leave the pink clipboard to jolene since she came late. HAHAHAHA. I hope she doesnt read this :P When she reached, we passed the pink one to her and we were laughing like damn hard. Cos we told her that having the clipboard would make her mark like a sissy:PPPP Oh my gawd so funneeeeeee. Then went to the toilet and saw a polishing club. Whasei so early. Then falled in for uniform inspection. Then started with drill test. Since i have my break first, i was needed to help out at the theory side. Taking sec 1s were extremely tiring. Really. Not enough time though. I was super exhausted. But i like taking stage 2. It was fun and basically i think everything was quite perfect. And im surprised that shannon was so well behaved. She actually didnt stick out her tongue or look elsewhere or shake her butt or whatever. She was really damn guai. Stage 3 wasnt that bad. Then stayed to tally results and change out. Me and wenhui was so tired that we actually sat on the floor outside the staff room while waiting for ms heng to accept the unwanted boots and we actually lied down on teh stairs till dionne said that there was bird shit and dog shirt and we all jumped up. Went for lunch and went home straight. Jolene led me up a slope and i didnt dare to go downhill. LMAO.
Well, the first experience today was tiring. And oh my gawd i cannot believe that jolene was actually so strict today. And me being the lenient one. Well, not really though. I just dun find so much fault in them. OH WOW ITS FINALLY OVER. Saw guofang and calista today:)

Aye, my facebook is currently on maintenance. Sad right? Haiya.....
I want to facebook one leh. And ms lee!!! WHY HAVENT YOU SEND ME THE THINGS I NEED? I've been checking the email since yesterday ya.
1 MORE DAY TO DRILL TEST!!!
dear lord, i pray that you give the girls stength and wisdom as they go through drill test tomo. I pray that you guide them along the way and make sure whatever they have learnt will be put into practice. Teach them perseverance. In jesus name i pray,
amen.
Well, its drill test. ONCE AGAIN. And i havent revised through all the syllabus and i havent polished my boots. And im worried for the sec 1s. really. I think all the commanders are and they are gonna do a last minute teaching.
AND AND AND! Oh my gawd, how unlucky can i be??? Everytime when theres such events, be it camp, or whatever national event, whalao i have erhum. WTH.
Ahya, photos will be uploaded soon. Provided that our 'photographer' comes tomo.
I shall end here-

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I hate nightmares. Simply becos they scare me. If not, why are they called nightmares? So, they are called nightmares for a reason: to scare you at night. But there are some which makes you realise that you will regret your actions forever. But its already too late when things happen. It will just haunt you for life.

Oh man yesterday was so fun. So met up with liming and she was flipping through my childhood photos and she said i was cute? Alot of funny ones though. So we slacked on my bed. And talking abt bed, it reminds me of the sms from drill head. She wanted to say: have a google email so that bianca can ADD you to the drill committee group BUT they typed: have a google email account to that bianca can BED you to the drill committee group. WHAPIANGEH i couldnt stop laughing. Then sickopig came over too. We could not focus on our work cos we kept playing and laughing. And we were talking abt bringing sunscreen to camp. And instead, why not bring skII mask. LMAO sia. Then we started the drawing competition. HAHA. Then last night, my mom was like: why your hand got heart shape? Then why got 'my ass'? You love ur ass alot isit? LMAO. Then became the handphone inspection. Piangeh. Then went for lunch and sent sickopig home. Then i couldnt believe that we actually started studying without talking abt other stuff. We really focused on the papers. Oh gosh, quite productive luh huh. Then packed my room. Sparkling clean:))))) Then went down to the living room to talk and gave a name called foxtress. HEH. Well, then sent liming down. Sighhhh fun times always ends.
Today i woke up crying. I had such a terrible nightmare that i would rate it the most saddening one in my entire life. Oh my gawd. Lesson learnt from the nightmare: your words and actions may cause a person to perish forever. And that you cant find them back ever again. Its either all or nothing.
And i really love the present that i got for rachel. I want it mummy, but you just wouldnt allow.
:((((((((

Whenever im sad, shannon's blog is the best cure. I dunno why but it states the reality of life.

Hello weekend was okay. Went parkway to get things for my friends and contingents. And i just realised i didnt like coffee cake. Its so sweet~ uh~
Today is monday. Having a studying session with liming afterwards. I wonder if my studying session will work out. SIGHHHH...back to the books. Anyway, i went marina yesterday and saw the youth scrabble weekend. So fun, i wished i could play too. And i dialled esther quite late yesterday, asking stupid questions. I just realised theres nothing much to consult her for though. JUST MARK. And i slept at 1 cos i was watching a movie and talking to my ma. And i fell asleep in my parents room hence i slept there through the night.
And i cant believe i have high blood pressure. The doctor said it was due to stress. I am stress? Oh wells, my face turns red whenever im nervous. HEHEHE. And that my mom said im bottling up alot of things. Haiya.... eoys around the corner.
Nothing much to post abt. Another day then:D

Finally its holidays!!! WHEEEE~ Well sch was alright today.
PE was slacking through the entire period as ms ng didnt come for lesson.
Maths was again boring. As usual.
Watched ice age for music. It was nice. And i wanted to cry and i had the urge to run down to mandai to pay her the last visit. But i didnt.
History just slack.
Live lesson abt bgr. Nothing much.
Took back report book and his remarks were kinda long. So he talked to me abt my remarks over results.
Clean the class. Oh man its finally sparkling clean:D
Lunch was funny. Shannon couldnt stop burping. And amanda forced her to say excuse me to everyone with our name. one by one.
So left with 2 periods of chinese. Talk and talk and talk abt textbook. I was trying to hard to keep myself awake. Then da ben dan gave me a peg with a heart.
AND AND AND. She kissed my hugging partner. EEEEWWW.
GB. OH WOW. I seriously have nothing much to say. Took stage 3 so pangseh my contingent. Uniform inspection first and they took so long to adjust their uniform in the toilet. Haiyo. Then i was talking to bianca and harlene. SUDDENLY! She went near me and pointed at me saying: you dont command like this. Becos i was placing my hand in the pocket in front of the contingent. In my heart, i was like: WHALAO!!! im not commanding lor. Im talking. Then she also scloded me for the way i stand. OMG larh. You very free isit? Then some girls cried abt the demotion thing. For that, i have nothing to say. Unreasonable creatures. Then next what? Strip off DI title? Poor attendance, sl and asl blamed. Poor drill? DIs at fault. You so clever you go teach lor. Haiya... suan le larh. Xiao hai zi bu yao gen ni men zhe xie lao ren ji jiao. HEHE. Then ran to change out of uniform. My hair was soaking wet. Then talked in the assembly area with jolene and all. Then my mom came so i had to leave. It was rather late when i actually left the sch though. :D
Now im completely exhausted. Really.

I think im suffering from TB. HAHA JK. Cos i've been coughing very badly.

I got up today feeling really abnormal. Ok maybe not abnormal my instincts told me something happened. And i ate my breakfast and got into the car. Someone rang my father's phone in the car and he started crying. And i was like oh what happened? Then he explained to me. I was so reluctant to accept the fact. I was really really reluctant. And i was too shocked to say a single word. How can this happen? My heart was shattered into a million pieces by then when i reached sch. So i was at sch, trying to hide the shattered me. So during self revision, i tried my outmost best to put things aside. So i decided to accompany amanda to count the no. of hearts she actually folded. 425 in total. So many huh~ Recess was kinda ok. Maths was passing really slowly, english too. Bio was amusing? Mrs phua and her funny teaching. The last two periods i spent it with care. SLEEP. Lunched and went for public speaking competition. Was alright but the results were unexpected. Stayed back in school for a while. Ate in the canteen and then went up to class. Wanted to pour out what exactly happened but i didnt in the end. So i went home.
Im wearing white shirt, black pants. Guess where am i going? This will ans your question to what exactly happened this morning.

Bio was ultra funny. Mrs phua was telling us about her process of delivery. Then we were laughing and laughing and some of us actually erased the thought of having a baby. Chinese was alright. Art was okay. Except the fact that we kept throwing clay at each other. Then the clay dirtied my pinafore. Went for chapel, sermon was good. Its abt staying focus and stay away from distractions. Well i guess i was pretty distracted nowadays. Then slacked through the rest of the day by having corridoors. Public speaking was zomg the scariest. I felt that my heart was gonna jump out anytime. Then my face was so red. Then went for nyaa. I was sooo off form today. Like everytime i bowl, it always get into the gutter. And i got pek cek. Then the instructor was like you are not concentrating and all that sort. I am okay. Then went home at 6.30 reached home at 7. Went to hougang to eat then sun bian get a few pen. I like my pen:DDD And ma bought me macadamia nuts but i am not suppose to touch it until my throat gets better. And i dun think its getting any better so.... Anyways, im tired. NITESSS *yawn*

Teachers day cum aces day was awesome. Aces was some really suaku actions and i cant believe those small actions could actually make me sweat. Wulala lose weight. Concert was funny. It was really fun and i stole 3 heart stickers from the floor. Then went to houngang then proceed to kovan as we were bored. Many things happen along the way which i shall not say it here. HEHE.