Its been forever.
I just realised that i have been studying for life.
And now that im tired of it.
Not becos its hard or whatever.
Its more of the countless disappointments that i will get everytime results comes back to me.
Speaking of confidence and authority.
Frankly speaking, i have non of those.
It was meant to be put on show during cca.
But what i am really is,
is the total opposite.
I remember my mom used to suan me when i have such remarks on confidence and all.
She was like : yeah~ RIGHT~
Now, its already the last lap. And im tired.
And i believe everyone is. Who's not?
But will i get what i want?
I remember i cried there and then during drill competition.
Cos i finally got what we all wanted. It didnt come so easily.
I remember how i nearly got paralysed then.
Right before we even started, i had much difficulty in walking and standing up
Let alone marching and all.
HAHA i remember how painful those moments were.
And now, i have to put things aside and really study.
Easier said than done huh.
But i will try.