Labels: GOODBYE PURE SCIENCE

Wont be blogging till i come back from camp.
OFF TO CAMP

Labels: i wished i never knew you

I fear being betrayed, i fear the feelings of it. I fear that once i fall, even if i managed to stand, i wont dare to walk anymore.
- YIHUA
Well, its true.
Once again, its camp. Im so gonna survive it through. Wish me luck.
Tomo release of streaming results, i fear it. But then again, i doubt i will get what i wanted.

This shall be a super short post. Well, i fear everything that is going to happen this week. Owells, lets hope everything will turn out okay. God pls bless me through the camp and i pray that i will stay strong no matter what happens. I believe things happens for a reason. Whatever that i want to blog is on amanda's blog. And i dun wish to repeat myself cos i will just be upset. :(
ok la, i need to go pack my uniform liao.
BYE BYE

Did chinese project at liming's house since 9 am.
I think everything turned out okay. i hope the video turns out well.
Ohwells, amanda, liming and i were bitching about someone who is unreasonable and .....
OHWELLS, i have nothing to say. So i shall just say that, if you ever read this: stop your nonsense. TYVM.

Went for cca. I think mrs lee's farewell rehersal was a total waste of time cos we didnt do anything other than sitting down, talking, playing games. Devotion was in the dance studio. Also had group presentation for community badgework. Talk the least as my voice sounded really disgusting under the microphone. I was made by a officer to do drill while waiting for the sec 1s but wenhui made me fall out. OWELLS, i freaking screamed at the sec 1s despite my sexy voice because they are just not listening. And i really cant take stage 1, due to the fact that im not very patient in girls who don't listen. But still, i had to take them. I had my helper to command today, which is good:D
Tomo going liming house to do chinese project. I dun see a reason why must i do it when exams are freaking over. Why are there always projects? I see no point in doing such stuff. Well, i shall blog tomo since i dun seem to be in the right mood afterall.

Hello guys. Happy grooming yourselves at the grooming session today:D
Well, i gave school a miss today because im downed with severe throat infection. wow.
6 antibiotics per day. And many many many other small tablets and even liquids. Almost all made me real drowsy. Im going for cca later cos i dun want to miss mrs lee's rehersal. Yeah....
My throat hurts......

Whapiang. I simply love this. Funneh to the max.
If free, do watch.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

My body is acheing like siao luh. I have sunburn which is pain to the max. Esp at the shoulders and neck. Whalao.....
And i have such a bad cough. And my voice is disgustingly sexy:DDD
Maybe i shall start using sign language:)
Received free 'goodies' today.
ALRIGHTS, SHALL POST ANOTHER TIME...

Promises are just like babies. Easy to make. Hard to deliver. Well, its quite true i guess. But i dislike breaking promises.
Rejection. Everyone fears it but then again, its what we all have to go through. You reject others because you yourself is being rejected. Well, again, its true.

Im sad. Why? Because i see no one around that i can confide my feelings with. Left my hp at home during dinner today. So that i can be alone and not be disturbed by anyone. No one could contact me or anything. Well, i like the peace.

The real definition of wedgie is: A wedgie occurs when a person's underwear or other garments are wedged between the buttocks. LMAO
Had financial talk today. BORING TO THE MAX. Whapiang. I started cutting paper. Let me show you how bored we were.....
I don't care about laptops,
neither about how they're bought
please, just 1 hour more
I wonder how i survived 3 before
I'd rather have 4 hour chinese lessons
Then being asked stupid financial questions
'Blossom
Brenda
Shakespeare

Oh wells, its just darn boring. So much so that i had to write letters to amanda.
And foo claims she is awesome when she is not. BLEH
Well i like going old folks home. Gained much experience and it was fun talking to them afterall. Basically i like them, innocent like kids but then again.....stubborn like ME :DDDD
Okay, gtg
BAI BAI

Today was out the whole day. I shopped till i drop:))) out to central. Nothing much. I just love the air con there so ohwells.....
Till then'

Sorry for the emo post down there. I wasn't feeling too good hence i need to pour out everything if not i'll burst. I feel cheated. Yes, cheated. That's the word.
Went bugis and chinatown today. Ma didnt want to go the west coast in the end cos she was afraid that her skin would catch fire. It was fun yet at the same time, tiring. And at the same time, feeling the sense of being freed from exam at least for the rest of this year. Ohwells, i shall end here. Im tired.

Sometimes, i wonder why living in this world is so tiring.
Sometimes, i wonder why people have to put up a false, superficial, artificial appearance to please a particular person.
Sometimes, i wonder if you are tired of your own crap and nonsense. Isn't those only in the books? Since when was it something beyond what I've read in the books? Yet, it seems so real, yet so fake at the same time.
Sometimes, i wonder what could be your motive for being nice to me all of a sudden. I tried so hard to convince myself that you had the nice treatment, purely out of just wanting to be nice. Yeah, i thought everything was so simple. Yet, i just came to a conclusion that it wasn't something i could understand anymore. Not something i could comprehend just by reading the surface. What do you want from me? I'm in the state whereby you just have to say and I'll follow...
I think living in such pretentious world is way too tiring. I wish it was just a simple one where everyone do not have to pretend. Just, simple. Yeah, that's the word.
If you are reading this, i just want you to think about your actions, your thoughts, your words. Telling people you're hurt. Have you ever thought of how much hurt have you caused to the people around you? Simply no, you didn't. If you did, i wouldn't have to give you upteen chances to change. Each time knowing that you will just take each chance for granted and I'll be the one hurt in the end. But i just had to tell myself that maybe one day you will really change for the better. But why does it seems that the day won't ever come? Why must i have to forgive and forget each time of hurt? Why? Each time i forgive, it means another time of fearing to see a repeat in your actions. I give up. This time, i really give up. Just do whatever you want to do and say whatever you want me to do, I'll obey.

Labels: i love walking in the rain because no one can see me cry

Im kinda upset. Or should i say disappointed with myself for the past few days. Cos i know my parents are disappointed with my results. I know it. Even though they said : Its okay, i know you've tried your best. Thats what they've always said. But i know they are diappointed.
I've just realised that i've been disappointing lots of people recently. I didn't mean to say those words to hurt you. Its just me who always doesnt think twice before blabbering crap.
Se Hui left. I didnt send her off. Though that, i just wish her all the best for her future endeavours. May god bless her with creating a facebook account soon :P

Well, im 14. HAHA FINALLY.
Just a short post to thank everyone. Those who gave me presents, cards etc etc. And even those that wished me in my face and those hugs and all. Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. Without you guys, my birthday wouldn't have been made so wonderful. So, thank you v v v v v much. And also not forgetting the ultra loud birthday song during recess. And also the super loud shouting of happy birthday after GB.
Yeah all those that you guys did, i am really really touched.
Love you guys:D

Today is our school's founders day! 93 years.
Woke up at 5.30 to put on my uniform. I found something ironic. During assembly, fallen in. Mrs lee said she will give us a speech, NOT A VERY LONG ONE, but its just as important. I guessed as much, it was A VERY LONG ONE. Long until long already. Then awaited for GOH, cool:D
Service was boring. But i had some entertainment from jolyn teo.
i left my GB cap in school. But yihua was nice enough to help me get it:D thank you so much:)))) i owe you a favour.
SO i went out in the afternoon, played. enjoyed. and finally, contented.
Haiyo tomo get back more papers, i am prepared to screw it all up:) but i will work harder next year. yes, much harder. easier said than done huh. but i'll try my best:D
Friday is GB photo shoot. Luckily yihua found my cap.

Labels: i finally found contentment

I can't accept your crap! Like what is wrong with you guys? Am i so unworthy of your stupid trust? Huh? So you think i will be safer with you spying on me 24/7? Oh purlease.....i feel stupid now ranting about all these nonsense.

I am sad. Why? Cos i am disappointed. Why? Cos of my results and parents. Ok i shall not rant about my results because i think i've already tried my best and if that is what god gives me, i'll accept it. My parents. Couldn't they trust me more without jumping to conclusions??? WHAT THE HELL OKAY! My mom actually suspected that im pregnant just becos my that thing didnt come on date. LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THEM? Installing video cam in the house so that i cant bring my friends in? Cant you have more trust in me?? Why cant you just trust me? WHY??!!!!
Im on the verge of arggghhhhh....... i feel like just smashing the stupid video cam and.....
im just disappointed. Why are parents so overprotective???? FUCK.

After so long, i finally found out where you are moving to. As much as i dislike such endings, you guys still have to go.

Labels: why not just let go?

hmmm.... so i went to work yesterday. Reached there quite late cos i wanted it to stop raining! Finished up with it and went to window-shop for awhile even though i had gastric:((( reached home and ate everything i could find.
Went to father's colleague's dinner. Then went ikea and shopped like 2 hours? Returned home late and was very very tired.
FACEBOOKED and found myself down for many many many things....
founders day, national drill camp, national drill test........
and jolene and i was comforting each other abt how we can get over another national project together and not screwing it all up once again:D
and she asked where has my strict side gone to........ i blanked out. They seemed so much stricter than i do but i cant seem to return back to where i came from.
Alright, i shall stop here. I hope the new week doesnt suck too much.
TILL THEN'

HAI......innovation week again. tsk. Going to estee's house tomo. Hope things will turn out well and completed:(

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As promised to yihua, i promised to update her on why my day suck today.
I shall not say it directly but instead indirectly since you already know who im talking about.
First things first, i cant stand the person bullying my mom. Secondly, i cant stand the way the person treat me. When you feel like scolding me, you scold. When you feel like hitting me, you hit. What do you take me as? I am your daughter, mind you. This morning, i wanted my day to start well becos its already the last paper for the year and you have to ruin it by scolding me in the morning. I havent closed the car door and you drove off and yet you screamed at me. Let me warn you one last time, any one who bullies my mom or my brother or whatsoever, will be despised by me.
Thats it.

Labels: i hope no one is gonna read this post

Its finally over and done. Guess how long i actually waited for this day to come....
Listening was good. Art was erhum. I classified mine as abstract cos it doesnt look as if it was for humans to understand.:DDDD Art paper was so long. So i took a trip to the toilet in the midst of it:P
Now, im gonna play:)))
Lets see....tomo going out to VIVO.
Tomo de tomo i dunno yet.
Lazy to type much.....i shall go and sleep and eat:)
BAI:)))

AYEEEERRR. ALL THE DIs WERE PRESENT IN THE WEDDING EXCEPT ME!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS MAN...... And they freaking told me that took a pic without me. worst, didnt leave a space for my face to be cropped in. FINE LUH.
Although im not there, i wanna wish ms seah erm.... happy marriage and hope she forms a soccer team soon? :P
today i woke up at 8 plus and went kovan to eat breakfast. Then my mom went to the florist to get a new plant. Firstly, she wanted a plant that is taller than me. yes, thats a tree. Then i was telling her how inconvenient it is to plant such a big pot of plant, so she decided to get a small one. Which is shorter than me. Yeah, thats abt it:)
SEE YA

Woke up at 8 plus today. And went orchard to sell my body. NO LAH. To work.
Had so much fun that i didnt want to go home. But i still did.
When i was on my way there. Something cute happened.
A lady was carrying this cute little girl and this girl kept pointing to me. Wanting her mom to come over to my side. Then her mom carried her over and she touched me. I was like OH HI:DDD so cute.
Then while working, this little girl wanted my balloon. I was really hesitant to give it to her cos i wanted it really badly. But in the end, i still gave it to her:((( Its okay....i can get another one another time:)
And i came ot the conclusion that im handsome hence people want to take newspaper from me. And yes, i leaked out my job (only for today)
At night, was at my ahma house. Watching my cousins play lanterns. Suddenly, his lantern caught fire and his brother took off his pants and extinguished the fire. WOW. The power of urine:)))))))
HAHA okay lets get out of the sick topic......
LALALA. Im bored. And at the same time, i am feeling crapped. Ahh forget it..
TILL THEN'

WELL, EOYs ended. At least theres only one more to go. I am quite convinced that i screw up english, chinese and science. ESP science. Well, i am prepared for the worst. Ma was telling me that i wont retain and all but......okay forget it. Since its already over, i will play as if i had never played before.
Today went kovan qi ji to eat lunch. Was having such a bad headache throughout the 2 papers today but felt okay after eating:DDDDDDDD haha im a glutton:DDDDDDD
Then went to look for thomas and fwens. I saw my elmo. I mean the shop's elmo.
Then tired, went home to rest.
Tonight, going out to celebrate:D
Tomo, going out to celebrate:D
Tomo de tomo, going out to celebrate:D
Tomo de tomo de tomo going to school to celebrate. Yeah. My head arh. Going to finish up the official last EOY. YIPPPEEEEEE!!!!!
Then no sch for 2 days. That would be so heavenly. So dun disrupt my sleep. Thank you very much:)
Yep that abt it. Will update soon:D