THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO. everything isnt going right!!!!
I CANT RE-ATTEMPT THAT QUIZ FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
WHAT IS GOING ON???????? CAN SOMEONE PLS TELL ME?

im damn sad today!!! Everything just went so wrong today!
my pencil case spoiled! Before that, so many things just happened.
Oh my gosh i felt so......... im damn tired pls. give me a break..
maths, got ticked off for not completing ace-learning. what the hell. i did it. It just TIMED OUT! So does that mean i have to re-do it? ok, i shall do it.
D&T was just so irritated. im so mixed up with what i think i should do and what i feel its just so mean. ok, sorry guys. im really really tired. So i may just type rubbish. sometimes i just feel that i shouldnt do this but at another point, i was just so irritated by you. why cant u just understand? chinese was the same.........jiang ke. went lunch.......took back my 90 bucks. and was given the qualified first-aider and that teacher kinda joked a little. i finally laughed after one whole day. Then saw the crazy gang......
them: EH EH EH SHERYL LEH!!!!
me: runs away.....
them: SHERYL!!!! WHY U RUN???? AIYO WHERE IS YOUR MELISSA HUH?!
me: huh~ she kenna quarantined.
them: huh! AIYO WHY LIKE THAT.........
Then it was kinda continued at the bus-stop. But talked rubbish.
AND DID I MENTION....... i hate my new shoes! its so freaking pain!
my heel is like going to bleed anytime soon. i cant walk pls..... so the whole day, i tried so hard to refrain from walking about.
ok, i shall end here....

Labels: everything just went so worng

I woke up with eyebags. And i was feeling really tired.
Then head to sch. They freaking took my temperature! The teacher was like using the gun thingy thermometer. GOSH. embarassing. And that people who enters by gate do not have to take temperature. ahhhh~ i have to do this everyday! since my father fetches me to sch.
Then went up to class. png gave me things to eat...... i was so happeh.
Then diana reached at 6.45. WOW. EARLY HUH. cos her sis's alarm clock woke her up at 5. No wonder. Mr teo came in. He saw me and walked towards my table. He stared at my hair. And he was like where's your lao po? i was like i dun have a lao po lor...... then he told me that later he still need to morning call her to ask her to take her temperature.
Mrs ramesh says sitting arrangement is gonna change. haiya........
BIO was scary. i dunno why. i felt so stressed up. maybe becos she called my name so........
PE was ok. Ran and lost weight. The best thing is that i will have to see someone every monday PE lesson.
IT. GOSH. IT WAS HILARIOUS! THE TEACHER IS DAMN FUNNY. SHES NICE. We went on facebook. And someone confessed. okok. i shall not elaborate much cos my hair is standing now. SCARY. And shannon and blossom were like helping me reply her. DAMN FUNNY. And blossom was like ALAMAK THIS ONE JIALAT MAN. yes, i must admit i was feeling kinda weird cos no girls ever did that. i mean its just so weird. okok, shall not talk abt her. AND yihua and shannon just kept saying this 3 words: MORE AND MORE. Like EW..... omg im not gonna think abt it.

OMG its so fun!!!
i wanna thank those people who made that day so special.
its really really fun. AND I APPRECIATE IT:)
i luv u guys alot!
I shant elaborate much. wait till i feel like it.
C'ya

I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW OKAY.
THIS SUCKS. BIG TIME!
TIMETABLE IS OUT.
TEACHERS NAMES ARE OUT.
MORE SPECIFICALLY, OUR ENGLISH TEACHER'S NAME IS OUT.
I SWEAR I HATED HER LAST YEAR. AND I SWEAR I WOULDNT WANT HER TO BE MY TEACHER EVER AGAIN. SHE SUCKS. IM JUST SAYING WHAT I FEEL LIKE SAYING FOR YEARS COS I HAVE A HEADACHE RIGHT NOW BECOS OF THE TIMETABLE. MAYBE SOME OF U GUYS OUT THERE WOULDNT AGREE WITH ME. I DUN CARE.
ALL I KNOW IS THAT IM GONNA SUFFER. BIG TIME.
IM FEELING REALLY TERRIBLE NOW. AND BY JUST SEEING THE NO. OF SUBJECTS INCREASING JUST MADE ME FEEL REALLY LOUSY.
AC, LISTEN TO THIS, YOU ARENT A GOOD TEACHER. YOU CAN TEACH BUT UR CHARACTER FAILS YOU.
I SHALL SHUT OFF HERE.

OHMY SCHOOL IS STARTING AGAIN.........

AH! MATHS MATHS MATHS!
IM STRUGGLING NOW WITH MATHS!
TERM 3 IS GONNA START SOON!
AND I AM NOT PREPARED! I HAVE NOT REVISED MUCH....

Im feeling really upset now. cos basically i dont know what happened to my email. I cant attach a freaking thing. arghhh
And i wish that someone could stop bothering me. Now, shes bothering my jie. WTH.
Anw, the sec 4s are back from PBB. And im glad that they came back tougher than before:) Some cried, but at least they made new friends and helped each other out. And dav said that she have lots of things to say and teach us and we shall wait for them to come back. i miss them so much. i must really say that im somehow much closer to the sec 4s than those in sec 3s and even in my level. Dun ask why....
To Dav: yes, i will wait for u to come back:) -best squad mate-
To esther: same catch phrase: i wanna step down soon.....(dav pls dun scold me). Esther is sheryl ho's girlfriend! ahahhahahah. Anw, i will wait for your answer to my question. I will wait till im selected. - the thick skin junior-
To jie: i miss you so much.......i've got lots of things to say to you. will catch up with you soon:)

This song is preeeeeety cute. :)

I have tons of homework to complete. So dun bug me.

Have to meet up and do project.
I cant stand it when some people are so free but come up with lame excuses so that they dont have to do work. LAME SHIT. Pardon me for once.

I MISS MY ELMO!!!! Return it back to me........
Im feeling really crapped right now.
To JIE, happy birthday.......
Im in such foul mood, i shall post when i feel better.

Labels: I HATE PROJECTS

Was some kind of screwed. Its like the most hentak i ever did in my entire life in gb. So i couldnt really walk nor could i close my leg after that. My tailbone was hurting and my leg was aching and my toe was painful. So i was teaching commanding and i had to give up. Like seriously. So went back to do drill.
Lunch with wenhui and jolene. And i saw melissa!! I miss her.....
Anw, wenhui just couldnt stop shaking. She shaked slowly or else people will think shes mad.
At the bus stop, there was this guy that we 3 were staring at. I was interested (not in him) but in his sleeping bag. It was so freaking small and cool and wenhui says that he got style when he is sleeping......ok...
So i boarded 53, and it was really crowded as people just came back from camp i guess. Then he was standing in front of me, facing me. Then the bus suddenly stopped, he nearly fell but he managed to grab my shirt, near my chest.
Then he apoplogised.
Yeah thats abt it.
And i didnt know drinking down too much water would lead to such a weird effect: HAIR STANDING.
Hence, i dun like water parades. :(

I was watching this show after the news. And it was all about cancer patients awaiting death. And there was one woman, she was going to go up to heaven soon and hence, her last wish was to marry this guy and use the last breath to say something to him. Then soon after she said, she passed on.....how sad:(

And there was this email that i received about the plane crash at the atlantic ocean. And there were pic stating that its the most precious and hence no one would be able to see this last sight again. I was like omg when i saw the pics. Becos the first pic showed all the people wearing oxygen mask in the plane during the turbulance and the second pic was abt the tail of the airplane flying off and people were thrown out of the plane. And it states that this guy who was in the plane managed to capture the images before he died and his camera and memory card was found.
THEN, there was this email that came abt that it was a spam and it was a HOAX. IT WAS FREAKING CAPTURED IN THE MOVIE ' LOST'
I feel cheated.

mummy and papa is bringing me to the science centre tomo....

ANYONE WHO BULLIES MY BROTHER WILL BE BULLIED BY ME.

I just met a old couple. He was crying becos he didnt have a place to live in, no food to eat, no water to drink, nothing left for him. Their children dumped them. He was picking up bread crumbs on the floor for his wife to eat.
When i saw this sight, i nearly cried till i realise i had 5 bucks with me. I went to them and gave it to them.
Everyone could tell how heartbroken they were but sometimes, i just wonder why children are unfilial.

I think its time for me to settle down and get started with revision and finish up my homework. Im really tired but yet, theres no more time.....

I crave for food now.
And i suddenly fell in love with F&N GRAPE
And i want pineapple rice. Its nice.
Ma is bringing me to eat pineapple rice tomo.
And theres commanding this fri from 10 to 12.....
And auntie is buying me bubble tea and shes gonna send me there.
HEHE I SUDDENLY FELT THAT I WAS FORTUNATE.....
and im so gonna put on weight at this rate that im eating,
BUT i dun care. AHAHAHAHAH.
Eat first then worry.
Jolene says im a guai kia hence i shouldnt pierce more earholes. And she says i shouldnt get a tattoo either as im a good girl. Yay im guai leh. omg im crazy.
yeah i shall go sleep now.....cos im yawning.....(wth)

I've not been online for the past 3 days. Guess what?
I had a freaking accident. There was this sports car that knocked me down. So now, i cant really walk. Luckily i didnt die, it didnt bleed as much either. It was just a suspected broken toe. Haha. Pity that i cant march now, as said from debbo.

This song is nice....... by taylor swift
Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are painting pictures in the sky
Sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you
I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you
Just a small-town boy and girl
Living in the crazy world
Trying to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
My secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me
I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you
When I'm with anybody else
It's so hard to be myself
And only you can tell
That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me, who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you,
with you,
uh huh uh, yeah

Fridays are simply the best. I like fridays. Becos its weekends. And i have loads of homework to do......thanks.

anw, today, was spending most of my time on fb. And talking to melissa abt calling someone darling and she was like why not u call ur erhum-- darling too? NO COMMENTS.



Then spoke to esther for a while and i simply wanna say that she make it seem as though she have no faults, we are the ones at fault. Fine. If im the one u wanna be angry with, u jolly well settle things out with me. You dont go around complaining to people and dragging people in. I loathe you for saying that my friends were the cause of everything. I simply hated that words that came out from ur mouth. Never were my friends the cause of anything. Its my fault. Do you think you are the only one hurt? Do u think by putting a sad look on ur face would solve everything? Do you wanna know why u seem so sad and i seem so happy? So does that mean that me being happy means that i have leave all the problems to you....... No. Playing happy is what im trying to do so that i wont die of sadness. Its not that we are really happy but its just what we are trying to do. Actually there could have been no problems. How did all these problems even started? Its due to all ur complains and rumours if u didnt know that. Did you ever know that all ur complains have caused more people to be hurt? Now, esther thinks that its all her fault that u became like this. Was it ever her fault? So now, could you just forget and just be nicer to people around you. At least not to me but those around you for the sake of ur friendships with people. I'll remember what you are trying to imply: its never ur fault as what it seems, its ours.

I have to freaking logout of facebook becos someone just wouldnt stop pestering me. For goodness sake, would you spare me? Stop asking why and why cant i........ Im not helping you anymore. Thats it.
Ohmygosh im so freaking irritated by her. Since all the drill sessions are cancelled, i dun wanna meet up with you anymore. Stop asking me commands, u should jolly well know all ur commands by heart now. If u still have to ask abt commands, this shows a great deal abt ur drill. Not that im looking down on you but i just wanna ask you how many freaking times have i and other seniors taught you abt all the commands?! I thot u were trying ur best to learn but from what i see now is that you are just seeking attention. Sigh. Another attention seeker. And i freaking told you to meet me on 12 June in sch. You kept on complaining that sch isnt a good place. OH PLEASE........then where on earth do you wanna go??? Shopping malls? Parks? WTH who teaches commands at such places? Since u didnt want, i suggest you go look for others. And stop BUGGING me.

Im trying to be mean right now to someone who irritates me but she doesnt seem to get it so........ haiya.....

currently talking to amanda online and she made me laugh really hard.

im tired of homework...... like seriously.

i dun want a new term to start....... but what can we do?

Haha i was meddling with my guitar and suddenly this song: teardrops on my guitar by taylor just appeared........
Haha used to remember rachel lim singing this to me everyday in school. That song is cool.
Ryan: Sorry, i've been busy with many things for the past few days. Will see you soon. :)
Marcus: Haha dont be jealous. I promise to see or call you soon too:)
I suddenly missed friends in corporals.....and i miss the camp. I think im mad but i seriously have no idea why do i miss such tough camp. Maybe its becos we had fun during the tough times. Haha but i miss them. Lynette, tianning, denise,rachel, hui shan, and a few more.....and of course, my dears, regina and velda!!! And ms Tay....she cute and small.....
I shall go study....byes:)))))

Becos my phone rang, you slamed my door. Thinking that i've not been studying due to the usage of handphone.
To you, i am always not working hard enough. My friends are better. They are working harder than me. Scoring better than me. Sometimes, i used to wonder why did i ever got into 2-2. I dun deserve a place in that class, its too good a class that i shouldnt be in. I just wanna say that im very stresssed up in this class. And i know that my results now, i cant make it in the rest of the year. And i dont think i will try anymore. Like now, right now, im struggling so hard with my studies and cca. Im very very busy but i still have to go for drill practices, commanding practice, outings......etc etc. Im tired for god sake. My SL is always bothering me and i have never voice it out. Im busy. And shes telling me that shes busy so she need me to always be there. I just feel like saying: theres sometimes, i really cant help u guys. There is some times, i have my own stuff to do and own stuff to worry abt and so i cant promise myself to be there teaching drill all the time.And she is always irritating me and i really dont know what to do.
As u can see, my maths and science is dying, i really dont know what to do. I've tried my best but my best=your worst. You think i want such results? I thought u would say: work harder. I was wrong. U just said: you cannot make it any further. Yeah i know that, so why not give up now than cry later?
My class, my friends are very hardworking and im not. So when i fail, some of them will go: EH AHYO how to fail one? U never study isit?
Im tired and its not that i want to give up, but its i have to.

Labels: fall for you

OMG. Im back alive. The camp was really tough. Really really really tough. I didnt expect it to be THAT tough. But still i manage to come back alive.
Day 1
Met in PL then took a bus then took a bus to Anglican High.
Reached there and got lost straight away. Our entire company didnt know where to head to report.
Then we suspected that Anglican had too much water to spare. They had a freaking big waterfall and that we all were like WOW. AWESOME.
Then went over to concourse area to have uniform check before we fall in.
Had some problem and ms chang was so angry with those girls that didnt bring their service badges and they were sent home becos we cant attend the camp without the badge.
Then falled in with our bags beside.
OMG we banged so freaking loud. Till other companies were staring at us.
Then officers checked our bags and many of the girls got their things surrendered. Air pillows, fan and stuff.
Broken up into groups. REGINA AND VELDA were in my group with the girls from other conpanies.
The group was so freaking quiet. But ice breaker was fun although my grp was always the last. Haha. Made our flag and it was the nicest among all the grp. YAY:) We are called PYARR. Which means LOVE IN TAMIL. WHAO.
Session 1 was alright.
DRILL! Was terrible. Took group HEIWA. And there were freaking no response at all. Then the officer was standing beside me and screaming at them. She was like " when you commander ask you something, pls answer. IS THAT CLEAR??!! Omg i freaked out. And my officers calls me mam during drill. I was like HUH OMG. And it was hard to teach reporting when i myself isnt that sure either. But at least i have my mentoir to guide me. Shes called Baohui and she is very nice. Like seriously very nice. She helped me with lotsa things. We were being stared at while teaching. And Jolene and i guess that we didnt pass.
We had debrief and both of us showered late and had more time to shower than others. YAY.
Dorm inspection was terrible. Dun wanna talked abt it. We had to redo and redo our inspection for 7 times. Uniform was one of our biggest problem.
Slept at 2.
Day 2
I was suppose to wake up at 5.30 instead of 6.30 to plan drill with jolene. But both of us didnt wake up. I woke up at 5 and was like wth half an hour more then i went back to sleep and the whistle blew at 6.30. I was like OMG! ARHHHHHH. Then me and jolene ran out of our dorms and stared at each other. Then we were like go brush teeth first then plan!
Yea and 5bx was just terrible. Blame it on the big sch. we had to walk 10 mins from our dorms to their field okay. And i heard that their teachers had to drive from their staff rooms to their class. WOW. Terribly big. So we had to run around and around that big field. I suddenly felt like we were in prison and doing such tough training.
Breakfast was nice. I love their Peanut butter. It was ultimate nice.
Drill again. But they were better. Taught stage 1 and there was this girl that couldnt stop laughing at me. Ahya. But their bangs were quite okay as said from the offficers. And ms esther lim was staring at my contingent and following me wherever i went becos she was worried that without Baohui, i will get bullied by the 4th coy girls in that contingent. Amanda, nicole and belinda. And ms lim was very angry at one of them becos she was screaming at me and kept going: sheryl HO. And she told ms chang abt it. Haiya.......tsk.
Session 2 was fun although i joined late. We had sweets to eat. Ms margaret Lee sure had the tatic of keeping us awake. Did some grp work.
Next was House Agape. OMG it was so fun!!!! Ms chang asked if the game was fun and she was surprised to hear that i said: FUN. Cos she knows im a person which games dont interest me unless its fun.
House Agape is a game wherebywe have to buy our land either big or small and build our own house. And in order to buy the materials to build our house, we have to work to earn money. The labours were DRILL, ART, and many others. So of course i kept going to the drill station as that was the only place i can earn a lot. So i earned around a thousand dollars on drill. Yay. So the game is that wrong commands will be given and those that react, will get out. So i was like okay....... and kept earning.
Session 3 was funny. Ms lee gave us Lollipops to keep us awake. And indeed all of us learnt alot of being a leader through the sessions.
Then OUTDOOR COOKING! it was fun. We had to bid for our food with the points we earned and my group got fishballs and crabmeat. The other grps had sardines and others. Which they hated. So we were cooking and we have to cook for the officers too. We had to finish up everything and the food was nice.
Devotion was funny. Geraldine went up to act and all of us were laughing like mad.
SURPRISE was just the ultimate coolness. OMG it was the one that we had so much fun.
We had a mass dance and we all went on high. Esp the officers. she was like ur buttock must shake abit arh. We all were like laughing really badly. But it was so fun. We went to split up into our companies and we all went crazy. And we had so much fun with the officers that joined us: ms heng, ms chang, bianca, peixuan. I just felt like saying Thank you so much for everything that happened in this camp. Without u guys, we wouldnt have had so much fun, scoldings and we wouldnt learn so much.
So we had 50 mins to shower with 3 pails for each grp. Firstly was an hour but some of the girls were irressponsible and left the pails behind on the first day so the officers cut down 2 pails from each grp and 10 mins too. The girls from other companies were very angry but 4th coy were like : Whapiang heng arh. Cos we thot they would punish us with changing into full-u. So i just felt that the officers are being really nice. 50 mins to shower for the entire grp was just so much time. If its our camp, we would only have half an hour at most. So we were praying and thank god for everything.
Toilet inspection was horrible. I was running 2 sides of the toilets.
Re-inspected 6 times.
Ran down to mop the entire canteen and felt really hungry and tired. And they didnt want to feed us supper and so we mopped till 2 and went to sleep at around 3 and had to wake up at 5.30 the next day. I told bianca that we were really hungry and she gave us her share of biscuits. So nice of her..... i bet she was hungry too.
Day 3
Woke up and had to change into our full-u and d0 dorm inspection
Again, had to redo it lotsa times.
Quiet time was meaningful.
Breakfast was again nice. MY PEANUT BUTTER!!!!!!:)))))
Sessions were given by ms chang. I was trying so hard not to fall asleep.
Devotion, i fell asleep and the officers too. I kept nodding. I was trying to control but still, i too tired.
Had evaluation by looking though the pics. Had so many of my pics. Becos ms lee says its fun to take me. Then we headed home.................... finally.
Overall, the camp was alright. Had so much fun, so much scoldings but in the end, we learnt as much. Other companies couldnt take this toughness but i guess all of us did well. I was tired to the extreme cos me and jolene were the ones doing most of the jobs. Running here and there to help in everything. My grp was quiet and there was this girl who cried becos she lost the pails and her water bottle. So i was comforting her and in the end found everything. But we forge many friendships. In the bus heading back to sch, me and jolene were sleeping. Darn tired. We slept at the same time as the officers and had to make sure all the girls sleep first before we can sleep and finishing up the food for people.
After this camp, i've put down the title of a DI. Both of us failed in experience. Officers said that: its not that u guys are not good but just too young and lack in experience.
So i still wanna thank those that helped the both of us to be such good DI-to-be once. At least we had learnt many stuff throughout the stages that we have to pass just to get this badge but yea.... wanna thank ms chang for always being with us, helping us in the camp and everything. We have indeed learnt many things and found that its tough to be a DI.
Thanks officers.....we'll miss you guys.