All i wanted was just you to be happy. If you were to ask, so simple? Yes, its that simple.
I just dun felt like saying anything when you said you were a nobody. Simply because this phrase does not appeal to me. Mistakes. Arent they suppose to make us learn? Failures. Arent they suppose to make us stronger? But why has it became something that we all fear and a tool, or should i say, an excuse for us to give up.
All i could do was to sit there and listen out to you. I tried helping but i wasnt of any help because you were so insistent, that all i could do was to sit and watch what happens next. If you ever happen to read this, i just wish you could be happier because all i wanted was just to be happy. I wouldnt ask for more.
I'm not emo, im sad.

Well the camp theme was : ITS NOT ABOUT ME.
But apparently, i think the way we portray ourselves in camp was all about ourselves.
Day 1:
No bag check, no need to surrender handphone.
As ice breaker, we needed to design a facebook group for our squad on majong paper. And i like my advertisments on kiwi polish, one fold socks and safety pins =P
For workshop 1, we had to partner with a sec 1. So i partnered with her and we had to do a craft. She taught me to do the wrong step and we both got scolded badly by klf.
klf: EH HALO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
her: I DUNNO.
klf: AND SHERYL! YOU AS A SENIOR YOU NEVER CORRECT HER LA!
WTH LA. you also never teach me how to do the proper step, how to correct her?
piangeh, then ms chang came up to us and told us to ignore her.
Teambuilding games were good and for this particular game, i had to carry all of them over this high rope. Whapiang. Then i was so tired when it was my turn last.
I lost my voice for drill.
For special night, we had to dance to bollywood dance. haha.

Day 2:
oh my god. I have never eaten such horrible breakfast. I've never really said camp food was horrible before. And this just...... ok forget it. Everything i there has this chemical oil taste which is apparently reused oil after many nights. ahhhh *waves hands frantically*
We folded foam roses and i went around teaching and helping. But in the end, i helped them to fold them. And therewas this girl whom i really feel for her. And we were all asking whats making her so sad and i got to find out that she was bullied by those sec 1s.
We went to bowling and we stayed there for 4 hours straight.
And workshop 2 was just...... my group got punished for something we've not done.

Day 3:
This was the only day i slept really well.
Breakfast was the same food as yesterday. *shrugs*
Had 5 mins to run up and change into full u.
And took dionne's contingent and zina claim that their drill was especially good. HEH.
Then evaluation and went home:DDDDDD *inserts a million smile*

Reached home, something strange happened and fatty didnt bring her key so she came up to my house. she left. i packed. And slept for 5 hours.
Im dead tired.
I didnt enjoy this camp as much as i wanted to.

Im downed with throat infection. Its terrible and im at home completing my NYAA booklet. And its somewhat completed.
Seeing you that day, i waved. But i waved with choosing not to give you a second look. I could but i chose not to. Because seeing you just made me wonder if you are a good friend to me. Maybe you were but whenever i see you, i think of whether a good friend really share the joy and sorrows. You shared the sorrows with me. I know that. And i appreciate you even more then. But it slowly fades off when i came to realise that you only listens to half the story. When you are are happy or sad, i celebrate and cry with you. But deep down your heart, i know you didnt appreciate my presence that much. But i chose to believe you did, until that day i really do not know you anymore. I don't know what goes through your mind till now but i think i should care less about your opinion.
I slowly fade off from clique during recess. And thats becos i realise im in a different class from them and no matter how hard i try to be with tham, its hard to fit in. Not that something happened, but no matter what i do, there is always this sense of not being able to fit in with the A classes anymore. Maybe im stupid and they're smart so no matter what i try to do, there is still this existence of not being able to fit in becos we are on a different level and their conversation often leads me to no where.
ALRIGHTS, WHY ARE SO MANY PEOPLE BORN IN MARCH???
guof told me not to discriminate march babies. :D HEHEHE
Yihua was sick yesteday, i hope she gets well soon.
I just realised that i still owe chua a valentine heart card. A bigger one. But i guess i could only make her a regular size one. With no upsize as i dun have anymore special paper.
I have to stop coughing in the shortest possible time becos theres camp coming up this weekend.
OH OH OH. I need to do more housework to complete that 20 hours. I only did 4 hours sia.
Will blog again soon when i find time:D
ZAI JIAN:DDDDD

As of today, i pretend i did not know you before 2 years ago. I will see you as someone whom i grew so new to. I can never accept someone so pretentious in my life. I was so gullible to think that you are actually a true friend. And today onwards, you will not be one. You think those friends of yours are the best to you. I have no issues on that. But i just hope you dun become so rude as they do. If not, i will really disregard you as a friend in my life. You are becoming more and more domineering and i do not want a friend like that.
Well, enough about such crap. OWELLS, today is E learning day. Where teachers spam us with tons of work which cant be removed by any form of virus.
Results are out. And i can say that im satisfied although its something good but i just felt that at least my hard work paid off. Which i felt relieved.

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