I want my CHOCOLATE back!

Contemplating

2010-03-26T23:06:00.002+08:00

All i wanted was just you to be happy. If you were to ask, so simple? Yes, its that simple.
I just dun felt like saying anything when you said you were a nobody. Simply because this phrase does not appeal to me. Mistakes. Arent they suppose to make us learn? Failures. Arent they suppose to make us stronger? But why has it became something that we all fear and a tool, or should i say, an excuse for us to give up.
All i could do was to sit there and listen out to you. I tried helping but i wasnt of any help because you were so insistent, that all i could do was to sit and watch what happens next. If you ever happen to read this, i just wish you could be happier because all i wanted was just to be happy. I wouldnt ask for more.
I'm not emo, im sad.

2010 COMPANY CAMP

2010-03-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

Well the camp theme was : ITS NOT ABOUT ME.
But apparently, i think the way we portray ourselves in camp was all about ourselves.
Day 1:
No bag check, no need to surrender handphone.
As ice breaker, we needed to design a facebook group for our squad on majong paper. And i like my advertisments on kiwi polish, one fold socks and safety pins =P
For workshop 1, we had to partner with a sec 1. So i partnered with her and we had to do a craft. She taught me to do the wrong step and we both got scolded badly by klf.
klf: EH HALO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
her: I DUNNO.
klf: AND SHERYL! YOU AS A SENIOR YOU NEVER CORRECT HER LA!
WTH LA. you also never teach me how to do the proper step, how to correct her?
piangeh, then ms chang came up to us and told us to ignore her.
Teambuilding games were good and for this particular game, i had to carry all of them over this high rope. Whapiang. Then i was so tired when it was my turn last.
I lost my voice for drill.
For special night, we had to dance to bollywood dance. haha.

Day 2:
oh my god. I have never eaten such horrible breakfast. I've never really said camp food was horrible before. And this just...... ok forget it. Everything i there has this chemical oil taste which is apparently reused oil after many nights. ahhhh *waves hands frantically*
We folded foam roses and i went around teaching and helping. But in the end, i helped them to fold them. And therewas this girl whom i really feel for her. And we were all asking whats making her so sad and i got to find out that she was bullied by those sec 1s.
We went to bowling and we stayed there for 4 hours straight.
And workshop 2 was just...... my group got punished for something we've not done.

Day 3:
This was the only day i slept really well.
Breakfast was the same food as yesterday. *shrugs*
Had 5 mins to run up and change into full u.
And took dionne's contingent and zina claim that their drill was especially good. HEH.
Then evaluation and went home:DDDDDD *inserts a million smile*

Reached home, something strange happened and fatty didnt bring her key so she came up to my house. she left. i packed. And slept for 5 hours.
Im dead tired.
I didnt enjoy this camp as much as i wanted to.

I really want my chocolate back

2010-03-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

I fear not.

I have lots to say to you, but in the end i chose not to

2010-03-10T12:25:00.003+08:00

Im downed with throat infection. Its terrible and im at home completing my NYAA booklet. And its somewhat completed.
Seeing you that day, i waved. But i waved with choosing not to give you a second look. I could but i chose not to. Because seeing you just made me wonder if you are a good friend to me. Maybe you were but whenever i see you, i think of whether a good friend really share the joy and sorrows. You shared the sorrows with me. I know that. And i appreciate you even more then. But it slowly fades off when i came to realise that you only listens to half the story. When you are are happy or sad, i celebrate and cry with you. But deep down your heart, i know you didnt appreciate my presence that much. But i chose to believe you did, until that day i really do not know you anymore. I don't know what goes through your mind till now but i think i should care less about your opinion.
I slowly fade off from clique during recess. And thats becos i realise im in a different class from them and no matter how hard i try to be with tham, its hard to fit in. Not that something happened, but no matter what i do, there is always this sense of not being able to fit in with the A classes anymore. Maybe im stupid and they're smart so no matter what i try to do, there is still this existence of not being able to fit in becos we are on a different level and their conversation often leads me to no where.
ALRIGHTS, WHY ARE SO MANY PEOPLE BORN IN MARCH???
guof told me not to discriminate march babies. :D HEHEHE
Yihua was sick yesteday, i hope she gets well soon.
I just realised that i still owe chua a valentine heart card. A bigger one. But i guess i could only make her a regular size one. With no upsize as i dun have anymore special paper.
I have to stop coughing in the shortest possible time becos theres camp coming up this weekend.
OH OH OH. I need to do more housework to complete that 20 hours. I only did 4 hours sia.
Will blog again soon when i find time:D
ZAI JIAN:DDDDD

DA BEN DAN i am

2010-03-05T12:18:00.004+08:00

As of today, i pretend i did not know you before 2 years ago. I will see you as someone whom i grew so new to. I can never accept someone so pretentious in my life. I was so gullible to think that you are actually a true friend. And today onwards, you will not be one. You think those friends of yours are the best to you. I have no issues on that. But i just hope you dun become so rude as they do. If not, i will really disregard you as a friend in my life. You are becoming more and more domineering and i do not want a friend like that.
Well, enough about such crap. OWELLS, today is E learning day. Where teachers spam us with tons of work which cant be removed by any form of virus.
Results are out. And i can say that im satisfied although its something good but i just felt that at least my hard work paid off. Which i felt relieved.

CRUSH

2010-02-25T17:47:00.003+08:00

HELLO GUYS! IM back! I haven't updated for such a long time. Cos i've been on mugger mode these 2 months. I really miss you guys. A true friend is someone whom feel sad when you are down. I thought back and i realised some friends are really true but some are pretentious while some others have already forgotten about you. I've studied hard and i know i've done my outmost best, Exams ended. I really struggled through these days, day by day. I've realised i began to accept my class. I hate changes but its something that all of us have to face one day. I feel like a different person in my class now. Maybe there's no more such things as competitive, where everyone just show their true self. And i like that.
During eng class today, we watched a video " I AM SAM" which is about this father who has very low IQ and behaves like a kid. And his wife gave birth to their child AND she ran away after that just becos she does not want to take care of the baby with him. Its a disgrace to her. And the father managed to take good care of the baby till she grow up like a very normal kid. Even smarter than most out there. One day, the government thinks he is incapable of looking after his daughter and wants to take her away from him. BUT the daughter loved him so much that she taught him how to look after her so that he can prove to them that he is capable of being a good father. Well, its a rather sad story and i felt it was meaningful.
Im quite drained out. And there was a bee in my class today. I was the first that ran out. I hate things that fly of you know me well:)
This sunday is my clique's outing. Hope they have fun.
i know you are lying but i just want to see what kind of lie can you come up with. Well that was just random.
I dunno why but all of a sudden, i felt so new to gb. I have the scary feeling like 2 years ago whenever theres cca. Maybe too much committments has made me really afraid. I feel so stressed, theres so many expectations to meet up to. And there are times where i cant meet up to your expectations. You havent tried it for yourself. I myself do not really believe that being fierce is a solution to it. Dun scream, but correct them instead. We all know the feeling of being screamed at. We've all gone through that and we fear it. Thats why i dun think that method works anymore. We are all numbed.

A SHORT ONE

2010-01-12T09:41:00.002+08:00

well, here's a post after so long. Well, i should say cca fair was such a bad attempt. Owells, im trying to adapt to the new class. :( Anyways, there's no school today:D:D:D cos of the excellent O levels results. And i lost 2 kg in a week. HEHHEH. And im looking forward to the end of term one.
TILL THEN'

A BRAND NEW YEAR

2009-12-31T14:06:00.004+08:00

HELLO today's eve. School's starting again. HAIZ. The holidays seemed to zoom by so fast that i did not feel that sch days were THAT fast. I kinda dread the feeling to go to school. It sucks great time. But a new year would mean a new chapter begins with new hopes and new things and new.... so on and so forth. So i doubt i will be at anywhere countdowning to the new year. SO HAPPY 2010 in advance :DDD
i dunno why but i kinda not look forward to the new year, you get what i mean?

Some friends are just like plastic

2009-12-28T10:12:00.002+08:00

I came to realise that i havent been on the comp for quite a while. And i came to realise that i did not check the sch web for 2 months. SO i decided to go take a look. Wells, the timetable's out today. And wells, its alright luh huh.
AND AND AND i like christmas.

FUN YOUR HEAD ARH

2009-12-24T13:28:00.002+08:00

I watched avatar the second time. WOW. Yes, again:DDD
But this time the volume of the cinema is so loud.

AVATAR

2009-12-20T22:29:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA. I LIKE THAT MOVIE. IT WAS AWESOME. Soooo jaw dropping. Long but miraculously, i didnt fall asleep. Good show. I think they will have a sequel of it since i thought it was quite a success though. Like all the seats were like fully filled up :D
I've also catched planet 51. Not as good as i thought though. I fell asleep. Maybe becos it all revolved around aliens and more aliens and hence its not as interesting:( SAD SAD.
But well, watched princess and the frog with the DIs. We thought we were childish and maybe you would ask: NI MEN JI SUI LE? But still, it was very touching.
Holidays were fruitful. Im left with one homework. SAY YAY. So i've watched 3 movies in this month. Deciding to watch more with bro:DDD HEHEHEHE. WAITING FOR CHRISTMAS! HOHOHO.
Started with tuition and finished both chapters on A and E math. Matrix is quite easy i guess. And the teacher kept poking fun of me cos i prefered A maths to E. I like shortcuts :D *GRINS WIDEEE*
OWELLS, updated enough. Going to sleep now. BUHBYE. GOODNIGHT.

I. JUST. REALISED

2009-12-15T15:19:00.004+08:00

HALLO. Im back. I shall just blog something as a reward of me finishing 80 math questions. HOHOHO.

I just remembered that my ambition was to be a tutu kueh seller when i was younger. I had never really dream of being a BIG person, doing BIG things, in the BIG world. Like many out there would dream of being a doctor, or probably a lawyer, or even a president? I remember myself dreaming to be a air stewardess but i dropped that thought as everyone says its dangerous to keep flying around. Then i wanted to be a tutu kueh seller cos thats everyone's childhood snack i guess? And it seems fun to play with flour and the fillings. Esp that metal thingy to scrap off excessive flour off the WHATS THAT CALLED??? ERm........stencil? Erm.. that thingy that makes the shape of it. AHA. I love my explanation. OWELLS, theres cca tomo. Again. SIGH.

2009-12-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

GEE!

2009-12-04T14:36:00.004+08:00

Life is like a piano.
White keys are happy moments and
Black keys are sad moments.
But remember both keys are played together to give
Sweet music

Wells, have been rather busy with quite a number of things and lazy to update.
Oh now, most likely busy with cca fair creative drill.
Oh i can't wait for flag day :D
Cos jolene owes me hi-chew. In specific, GRAPE FLAVOUR. RAWRRRR.
KAYS EARTHLINGS, BUHBYE.

2009-11-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

Pick myself up.

CONCLUSION

2009-11-28T21:37:00.003+08:00

Hello guys, i've been out for the whole day. Like wow. I havent been out for the entire day for so long. Went to work and eat and shop. OWELLS, i enjoyed it. Thanks so much to liming and boyfwen:) Thanks so much for being there. And clique outing! Shannon has lotsa things on so i doubt she can make it. *inserts tons of sad faces* During lunch, had a serious talk with mom. HAIZZZZZ.... i actually think i've sighed more than 50 times today. And i was pondering alot today. Abt how in conclusion, i shouldnt have worked so hard for all subjects but actually just focusing on the main ones. Cos i just realised that no matter how poor your humans. are, they dun actually consider that and penalise us for that. Its the main ones that count. So i came to a conclusion that even you worked extra hard for all, they wouldnt reward you. They would just end up like me. Unrewarded.

TRUTH

2009-11-26T14:47:00.002+08:00

I actually promised to study really hard if my appeal gets through. But since it didnt, my motivation that drives me to work hard is now gone.

you made me sad

2009-11-26T14:29:00.003+08:00

Everyone is either rejoicing or asking me for more help. TYVM. Im vexed up. Why is everyone given a second chance and why didnt i? Why? Theres no one who listens out for me. Everytime my phone rings, i hope its someone whom i can talk and just talk and the person just listens. But that doesnt happens. My phone rings for me becos i need to solve problems for people. Hello do anyone of you guys out there actually know how i feel. I doubt so. Cos if you do, you wouldnt add on to my burden. I feel stupid. Stupid for helping others and at the end of it all, i aint rewarded. Who says god sees my effort? If he did, he wouldnt have done this to me. You said god has a plan for everything. I hate his plan then. God doesnt want any of his children to be sad. But he's making me sad. I hate the school. I just heard of some bias facts of why ppl had their appeal through but i shant state it here. Theres never justice in this world. I actually hope no one is reading this cos im ranting away abt my life. I hate to do so. But i guess this is the only way to pour out everything. So what i guessed was right. unseccessful. Luckily this time round, i didnt carry a single hope with me. People were telling me not to be pessimistic and DunBeSad. Easier said than done. Just take yoursellf as me and you will know how difficult it is not to be sad.

Thats so messed up

2009-11-26T09:25:00.003+08:00

KENNETH! YOU ARE BACK! HAHAHAAH. OWELLS I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY MISSED HIM. HEHE.
DOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWN
Anyways, i shall stay away from the comp for the time being to continue with my homework. Just a few more before getting it done:)
BYE GUYS!

BACK

2009-11-24T14:43:00.003+08:00

HELLO GUYS IM BACCCKKKK! Say yay!
Anyways, it ws really cold right there and there were CLOUDS coming out of my mouth. WUUU~
And theres this incident that kept bugging my mind. This mother pulled her daughter's hair and scolded her like mad. Damn sad.
Anyways, i have something to say.
THE SCHOOL AIN'T GIVING ME ANY REPLY. THEY LEFT ME HANGING RIGHT THERE. Yes, everyone has gotten a reply from the school except me. I dun care if it wasnt successful but at least give me a reply. From all my friends, everyone got a satisfied answer. EXCEPT ME. Talked to yi hua just now and told her how disappointed i was. God has not seen my efforts and neither did he reward me anything. All my friends were rewarded. They were elated. All of them got a second chance but why am i always the one who is left hanging there??? Why?
Im tired. And seeing them so happy makes me sad. Cos no one sees my effort. Each and everyone of them are giving me high hopes. Which im afraid that in turn, it turns out to be just a false hope. Then i would just say that i had my hopes up to high that it came crashing down.
Enough about that. I will wait patiently for the letter. Although im convinced it will be unsuccessful. Shannon said the power of words will make things true. Well, its just a matter of accepting facts. Maybe, late reply = unsuccessful. i dunno. I will just wait and see. It will come one day....
Called up dionne to find out what i've missed out on today's meeting. Its all abt drill. And heard abt jolene and her funny conversation with ms heng abt ms teo. Piangeh, words do not go through her mind. HAizzz always like that.
Alrightssss i'll blog another day. Till then.

ZONAL DRILL TEST 09'

2009-11-20T18:19:00.003+08:00

Well, this is the last national project for the year. finally huh. I've waited for this day for so long...
Owells, of course there were problems today. since when were there no problems?
problem #1 someone forgot to bring her cap.
solution: get her maid to bring it here. Her maid flies. She reached really fast.
problem #2 someone did not turn up so i went to call......this is how it goes........
Girl: hallo?
me: may i speak to blah blah please?
girl: ya?
me: are you coming for drill test today?
girl: nooooo.
me: why not?
girl: *shivers* huh (then hangs up the phone)
No comments -.-
Reached st hilda's and practiced. terrible much. Well, i taught my best. The rest were actually up to them.
So i took ds 2 for 2 contingents whereas lucky others only assessed one.
I guessed everything went well. And i saw someone who resembles so much like dav. koh. So alike. The way they talked, their actions, drills, posture, face, voice. must be long lost twins or something.
Was really tired and i kept using my clipboard to press on my stomach as i had cramps.
Ended and went to compass with the rest.
i like the bus ride to and fro. Jolene took a video of me whining. She kept laughing at me.
We went to eat and talked abt some interesting stuff.
Then i went home. I need to pack cos im leaving tomo morning.
I will be away till next tuesday.

IMY

2009-11-19T18:07:00.001+08:00

I didnt get to see the meteor shower yesterday. :(

conversation

2009-11-19T16:52:00.005+08:00

I was made to call up about 11 girls to remind them about zonal drill test tomo. And apparently ms heng gave me rachel LIM's no. instead of rachel LEONG's one. So i just threw my face on the phone becos i thought all the no.'s were reliable sources and i have been calling up many girls without any problems. So here's how the mistaken identity conversation goes...........
me: may i speak to rachel please?
R: yes speaking.
me: hey rachel (whom i thot was leong), im sheryl YOUR GB SENIOR. *facepalm*
R: huh sheryl my GB senior?
me: ya, sheryl ho YOUR GB SENIOR (yes i repeated that) *double facepalm*
R: SHERYL HO? oh ok why?
me: rmb that tomo there's zonal drill test. you going right?
R: huh? why am i going? i didnt know i have to go.
me: cos i think you failed stage one right?
R: Huh?! Where got. Im rachel LIM.
me: OH MY GAWD. Why didnt you tell me earlier??? im so sorry.
R: its okay, SHERYL GB SENIOR *jokes around*
So both of us laughed and laughed at our stupid mistaken identity.
And yi hua just told me something that i found really interesting. And i didnt know that lor. You will get hungry faster when you are having menses??? I didnt know that.......wow
And we were talking about all sorts of things. Abt baking cake over at her house to eating sakae sushi to making our own sheryl-yihua sushi to the cool facebook trick to whether we prefer to study overseas cos shes ang moh pai to anything possible to talk abt on earth. HAHA didnt talk to her for sooooo long. Owells tap tap. (yihua, you should know what im talking abt) and C :D
Owells, downed for drill test tomo. I hope it goes well. Last minute revision is a must.
And i shall go pack my uniform now. Polish boots while watching the tv tonight.
AND I'LL BE AWAY FROM SAT TILL TUES. will be back soon. Dun miss me.
See ya guys'
LOVE,
SHEWYL

SINGAPORE FOOD FESTIVAL

2009-11-18T11:25:00.002+08:00

I want to go!!!! But i'll be out of Singapore....Haizzzz. Damn suey. I shall wait for next year's one. *inserts thousands of sad faces*
And just now, theres this boy whom i do not know who the hell is he. Talked to me. Whalao damn scary. I didnt respond at all. HAHA.
Instead, talked to jie abt next year's cca fair. AGAIN. So fast yeah. So we have to plan creative drill again. 1 year just passed so fast. Alrights, im going out. BUHBYE.

TSK

2009-11-17T17:04:00.002+08:00

Piangeh. Today when i was on the way back from my ma's office, there was this cheekopek who touched my hand. Nope, not that song. Ya, he touched my hand okay. OMG LUH. I feel like slapping him can? ARGH forget it. I shall be nice and just walk faster. His freaking face is like soooooo EEEEEEEYURRRRR. OH MA GAWD.
OWELLS, my neck is hurting. Ma says its becos i never sleep properly. SIGH...

MEHHHHH

2009-11-16T12:03:00.001+08:00

Im rushing homework. Cos my ma wants me to finish all my homework by today. Which is quite impossible huh. But i'll try to finish at least a few:D
And im done with 3. Lots more to go.
Till then.

2009-11-15T11:12:00.001+08:00

Its only now till i realise how a useless person i was. Im a failure at everything.

I played in the rain

2009-11-13T19:16:00.001+08:00

I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.
NICE ONE!

NICE

2009-11-12T22:23:00.001+08:00

Its nice to be important but its more important to be nice
I LIKE THIS PHRASE ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT:DDDDD Heh heh

2 DASH 2 CLASS OUTING

2009-11-11T14:54:00.007+08:00

HELLO class outing was alright:D But it rained. Like what foo says: maybe becos the clouds are sad:( Anyway, we played captain's ball with cabbage and capsicum. Whereby the cabbage was tossed everywhere. And cabbage came falling from the sky and being hidden by the sand by us:D Well, it rained so we all ran for our lives into the sheltered area outside 7-11. camped there for quite a while and return there once it stopped raining. However, we kicked the sea water for a few mins and it rained again. Piangeh. I saw seaseeds in the sea. WUUUUU~~~~ It looks like human hair. And i gave foo a seashell that i picked. I hope its still with her. And so we camped outside 7-11 again and we went in to eat. hehheh. Amanda and her itchy hands, go and touch the freaking nacho cheese and kenna caught by the 7-11 bung. AHYO. Then eat liao, went to bathe. The water was freaking cold please. My gawd. *shivers* went out for dinner with amanda, guof, liming and yihua. And at the mrt, this couple was kissing as if they did not kiss before. :O After dinner, we brought liming to get her ears pierce. And me and yihua got identical rings. WULALA. Then went to KFC to drink PEPSI. HEHEH. if you love me, you must finish this cup of pepsi. And went to meet amanda's friend after that. AHYO no wind stomach. So we headed home afterwards and the day just ended like that.

CYA. PLUS FOO WAS ACTUALLY WEARING A RED TANK TOP =P

WU~

2009-11-09T09:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO it looks sunny today. Ok good, i hope it is :D
Blog more another day....

That's not my name

2009-11-08T21:11:00.005+08:00

Hello:D

Tomo's class outing. I hope it will turn out fun and i promised people to take lotsa pictures with them.

I just read OMY.sg and was like: O MY. HAHA. Had lotsa scary news abt this man who burned up his children in the house and then jumped to his death. Oh man.....so sad. And another one was abt this guy who suspects his wife of having an affair with another man hence rushed into the toilet and beat his wife up when she was having a bath??? Like wth....and poor woman had to run out of her house. naked. Oh my, thats so cruel. I dun think i will ever run out of my house naked even though someone is out to kill me:((((

Ok, enough abt news. I just realised i've been reading up alot lately. And watching the tv too. Wulala~ kay anyways, i shall blog another day. Probably tuesday?

Work later

2009-11-06T10:20:00.003+08:00

Hey guys.....off to work.

And many of my fwens are off to camp. SIGHHHHH~

Then i will have no one to disturb.

promised boyfwen to take lotsa pics with her during class outing:D

And i will take lotsa pics on that day cos.....

OK OFF I GO BYE BYE

IM BORED OF BEING BORED

2009-11-05T15:01:00.002+08:00

OH MA GAWD IM SO BOREDDDDDDDD........................
Maybe i should start on something productive. Yes, holiday homejoy. :)

BOWLED

2009-11-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 7.30 for nyaa. I love the trip to Jurong. It was so long that i had a nice nap though. A freaking 1 hour plus bus ride. Reached there and felt super cold. And there we were at superbowl, feeling supercold and beside us were super spa. HAHA. Noelene was suaning me abt striking for the first time for today. WTH. And alvina had lotsa food. Well brenda is in korea enjoying life. Well i must say this last bowling session was quite fun.
Trip to bishan was funny to the max. SAW MRS RAMESH ON THE BUS. WTH RIGHT? HAHAHAH we even pulled up our socks sia.
And i 'played hide and seek' in J8. =P

wishing for the best of my appeal

2009-11-01T13:03:00.002+08:00

Hey~ HALLO im so bored. And im finally well cos my fever has finally subsided. YAY.
HAHA will blog soon. And im still waiting for liming's blog to be open:D

30 OCT 2009

2009-10-31T21:33:00.005+08:00

I'm finally sick. After pouring out my tears, my everything, i've finally let it go. 30 Oct. My saddest day in life. My tears just represented my disappointment, my fears.... I cried becos i've worked hard but god didnt see my hardwork and neither did he reward me with anything. I am actually quite convinced that this time round, my letter of appeal would not be approved. Hence im not pinning any hope on it. Facing the fact that my parents would transfer me out of PL once the appeal doesnt get through. I fear that. I'm really afraid. But then again, combined sci isnt that bad afterall. It will just make my life easier. I've always wanted pure...but i believe god has a plan for everything. And i just have to follow him wherever he leads me to. I will just cherish the time that i have left with my friends. I still have 2 months. Although its short but its enough. Well, everything is still not confirmed. I'll just have to sit and wait for 20 Nov.

Will blog again soon once im feeling better:D

OFF

2009-10-29T23:00:00.001+08:00

Wont be blogging till i come back from camp.
OFF TO CAMP

I fear

2009-10-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

I fear being betrayed, i fear the feelings of it. I fear that once i fall, even if i managed to stand, i wont dare to walk anymore.
- YIHUA
Well, its true.
Once again, its camp. Im so gonna survive it through. Wish me luck.
Tomo release of streaming results, i fear it. But then again, i doubt i will get what i wanted.

Last straw

2009-10-26T20:56:00.002+08:00

This shall be a super short post. Well, i fear everything that is going to happen this week. Owells, lets hope everything will turn out okay. God pls bless me through the camp and i pray that i will stay strong no matter what happens. I believe things happens for a reason. Whatever that i want to blog is on amanda's blog. And i dun wish to repeat myself cos i will just be upset. :(
ok la, i need to go pack my uniform liao.
BYE BYE

Like mother like daughter

2009-10-24T22:56:00.006+08:00

Did chinese project at liming's house since 9 am.
I think everything turned out okay. i hope the video turns out well.
Ohwells, amanda, liming and i were bitching about someone who is unreasonable and .....
OHWELLS, i have nothing to say. So i shall just say that, if you ever read this: stop your nonsense. TYVM.

Restricted

2009-10-23T20:25:00.002+08:00

Went for cca. I think mrs lee's farewell rehersal was a total waste of time cos we didnt do anything other than sitting down, talking, playing games. Devotion was in the dance studio. Also had group presentation for community badgework. Talk the least as my voice sounded really disgusting under the microphone. I was made by a officer to do drill while waiting for the sec 1s but wenhui made me fall out. OWELLS, i freaking screamed at the sec 1s despite my sexy voice because they are just not listening. And i really cant take stage 1, due to the fact that im not very patient in girls who don't listen. But still, i had to take them. I had my helper to command today, which is good:D
Tomo going liming house to do chinese project. I dun see a reason why must i do it when exams are freaking over. Why are there always projects? I see no point in doing such stuff. Well, i shall blog tomo since i dun seem to be in the right mood afterall.

YO!

2009-10-23T10:54:00.003+08:00

Hello guys. Happy grooming yourselves at the grooming session today:D
Well, i gave school a miss today because im downed with severe throat infection. wow.
6 antibiotics per day. And many many many other small tablets and even liquids. Almost all made me real drowsy. Im going for cca later cos i dun want to miss mrs lee's rehersal. Yeah....
My throat hurts......

Piangeh

2009-10-22T18:41:00.002+08:00

Whapiang. I simply love this. Funneh to the max.
If free, do watch.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

acheing

2009-10-22T18:29:00.002+08:00

My body is acheing like siao luh. I have sunburn which is pain to the max. Esp at the shoulders and neck. Whalao.....
And i have such a bad cough. And my voice is disgustingly sexy:DDD
Maybe i shall start using sign language:)
Received free 'goodies' today.
ALRIGHTS, SHALL POST ANOTHER TIME...

REJECTION

2009-10-22T18:25:00.002+08:00

Promises are just like babies. Easy to make. Hard to deliver. Well, its quite true i guess. But i dislike breaking promises.
Rejection. Everyone fears it but then again, its what we all have to go through. You reject others because you yourself is being rejected. Well, again, its true.

Im sad

2009-10-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

Im sad. Why? Because i see no one around that i can confide my feelings with. Left my hp at home during dinner today. So that i can be alone and not be disturbed by anyone. No one could contact me or anything. Well, i like the peace.

I just read up on whats a wedgie

2009-10-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

The real definition of wedgie is: A wedgie occurs when a person's underwear or other garments are wedged between the buttocks. LMAO
Had financial talk today. BORING TO THE MAX. Whapiang. I started cutting paper. Let me show you how bored we were.....
I don't care about laptops,
neither about how they're bought
please, just 1 hour more
I wonder how i survived 3 before
I'd rather have 4 hour chinese lessons
Then being asked stupid financial questions
'Blossom
Brenda
Shakespeare

Oh wells, its just darn boring. So much so that i had to write letters to amanda.
And foo claims she is awesome when she is not. BLEH
Well i like going old folks home. Gained much experience and it was fun talking to them afterall. Basically i like them, innocent like kids but then again.....stubborn like ME :DDDD
Okay, gtg
BAI BAI

OUT

2009-10-19T21:15:00.002+08:00

Today was out the whole day. I shopped till i drop:))) out to central. Nothing much. I just love the air con there so ohwells.....
Till then'

RAIN

2009-10-19T21:14:00.001+08:00

I LOVE WALKING IN THE RAIN BECAUSE NOBODY CAN SEE ME CRY

What’s the point in ever trying to be happy when the very pursuit of happiness is what makes you miserable

2009-10-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

Im neglected

2009-10-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the emo post down there. I wasn't feeling too good hence i need to pour out everything if not i'll burst. I feel cheated. Yes, cheated. That's the word.
Went bugis and chinatown today. Ma didnt want to go the west coast in the end cos she was afraid that her skin would catch fire. It was fun yet at the same time, tiring. And at the same time, feeling the sense of being freed from exam at least for the rest of this year. Ohwells, i shall end here. Im tired.

TIRED OF DRAMA

2009-10-18T21:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder why living in this world is so tiring.
Sometimes, i wonder why people have to put up a false, superficial, artificial appearance to please a particular person.
Sometimes, i wonder if you are tired of your own crap and nonsense. Isn't those only in the books? Since when was it something beyond what I've read in the books? Yet, it seems so real, yet so fake at the same time.
Sometimes, i wonder what could be your motive for being nice to me all of a sudden. I tried so hard to convince myself that you had the nice treatment, purely out of just wanting to be nice. Yeah, i thought everything was so simple. Yet, i just came to a conclusion that it wasn't something i could understand anymore. Not something i could comprehend just by reading the surface. What do you want from me? I'm in the state whereby you just have to say and I'll follow...
I think living in such pretentious world is way too tiring. I wish it was just a simple one where everyone do not have to pretend. Just, simple. Yeah, that's the word.
If you are reading this, i just want you to think about your actions, your thoughts, your words. Telling people you're hurt. Have you ever thought of how much hurt have you caused to the people around you? Simply no, you didn't. If you did, i wouldn't have to give you upteen chances to change. Each time knowing that you will just take each chance for granted and I'll be the one hurt in the end. But i just had to tell myself that maybe one day you will really change for the better. But why does it seems that the day won't ever come? Why must i have to forgive and forget each time of hurt? Why? Each time i forgive, it means another time of fearing to see a repeat in your actions. I give up. This time, i really give up. Just do whatever you want to do and say whatever you want me to do, I'll obey.

Subject combination

2009-10-17T14:56:00.003+08:00

Im kinda upset. Or should i say disappointed with myself for the past few days. Cos i know my parents are disappointed with my results. I know it. Even though they said : Its okay, i know you've tried your best. Thats what they've always said. But i know they are diappointed.
I've just realised that i've been disappointing lots of people recently. I didn't mean to say those words to hurt you. Its just me who always doesnt think twice before blabbering crap.
Se Hui left. I didnt send her off. Though that, i just wish her all the best for her future endeavours. May god bless her with creating a facebook account soon :P

THANKS GUYS

2009-10-17T14:40:00.002+08:00

Well, im 14. HAHA FINALLY.
Just a short post to thank everyone. Those who gave me presents, cards etc etc. And even those that wished me in my face and those hugs and all. Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. Without you guys, my birthday wouldn't have been made so wonderful. So, thank you v v v v v much. And also not forgetting the ultra loud birthday song during recess. And also the super loud shouting of happy birthday after GB.
Yeah all those that you guys did, i am really really touched.
Love you guys:D

usher usher usher

2009-10-14T19:11:00.003+08:00

Today is our school's founders day! 93 years.
Woke up at 5.30 to put on my uniform. I found something ironic. During assembly, fallen in. Mrs lee said she will give us a speech, NOT A VERY LONG ONE, but its just as important. I guessed as much, it was A VERY LONG ONE. Long until long already. Then awaited for GOH, cool:D
Service was boring. But i had some entertainment from jolyn teo.
i left my GB cap in school. But yihua was nice enough to help me get it:D thank you so much:)))) i owe you a favour.
SO i went out in the afternoon, played. enjoyed. and finally, contented.
Haiyo tomo get back more papers, i am prepared to screw it all up:) but i will work harder next year. yes, much harder. easier said than done huh. but i'll try my best:D
Friday is GB photo shoot. Luckily yihua found my cap.

FOR my sake

2009-10-13T18:57:00.002+08:00

I can't accept your crap! Like what is wrong with you guys? Am i so unworthy of your stupid trust? Huh? So you think i will be safer with you spying on me 24/7? Oh purlease.....i feel stupid now ranting about all these nonsense.

Results back

2009-10-13T18:27:00.002+08:00

I am sad. Why? Cos i am disappointed. Why? Cos of my results and parents. Ok i shall not rant about my results because i think i've already tried my best and if that is what god gives me, i'll accept it. My parents. Couldn't they trust me more without jumping to conclusions??? WHAT THE HELL OKAY! My mom actually suspected that im pregnant just becos my that thing didnt come on date. LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THEM? Installing video cam in the house so that i cant bring my friends in? Cant you have more trust in me?? Why cant you just trust me? WHY??!!!!
Im on the verge of arggghhhhh....... i feel like just smashing the stupid video cam and.....
im just disappointed. Why are parents so overprotective???? FUCK.

met up

2009-10-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

After so long, i finally found out where you are moving to. As much as i dislike such endings, you guys still have to go.

Im so very scared

2009-10-11T13:27:00.008+08:00

hmmm.... so i went to work yesterday. Reached there quite late cos i wanted it to stop raining! Finished up with it and went to window-shop for awhile even though i had gastric:((( reached home and ate everything i could find.
Went to father's colleague's dinner. Then went ikea and shopped like 2 hours? Returned home late and was very very tired.
FACEBOOKED and found myself down for many many many things....
founders day, national drill camp, national drill test........
and jolene and i was comforting each other abt how we can get over another national project together and not screwing it all up once again:D
and she asked where has my strict side gone to........ i blanked out. They seemed so much stricter than i do but i cant seem to return back to where i came from.
Alright, i shall stop here. I hope the new week doesnt suck too much.
TILL THEN'

Innovation week

2009-10-08T22:13:00.003+08:00

HAI......innovation week again. tsk. Going to estee's house tomo. Hope things will turn out well and completed:(

Its dead again!

2009-10-07T10:56:00.002+08:00

Ahhh. My earpiece is dead again. Thats it. Im so going to ma's office to get a new one.

SCHOOL DAYS

2009-10-05T22:14:00.008+08:00

Those words were written by my boyfwen a.k.a amanda. Plus a toilet picture.

Rest are on facebook. :)

AS PROMISED

2009-10-05T18:50:00.003+08:00

As promised to yihua, i promised to update her on why my day suck today.
I shall not say it directly but instead indirectly since you already know who im talking about.
First things first, i cant stand the person bullying my mom. Secondly, i cant stand the way the person treat me. When you feel like scolding me, you scold. When you feel like hitting me, you hit. What do you take me as? I am your daughter, mind you. This morning, i wanted my day to start well becos its already the last paper for the year and you have to ruin it by scolding me in the morning. I havent closed the car door and you drove off and yet you screamed at me. Let me warn you one last time, any one who bullies my mom or my brother or whatsoever, will be despised by me.
Thats it.

OFFICALLY OVER AND DONE

2009-10-05T13:53:00.002+08:00

Its finally over and done. Guess how long i actually waited for this day to come....
Listening was good. Art was erhum. I classified mine as abstract cos it doesnt look as if it was for humans to understand.:DDDD Art paper was so long. So i took a trip to the toilet in the midst of it:P
Now, im gonna play:)))
Lets see....tomo going out to VIVO.
Tomo de tomo i dunno yet.
Lazy to type much.....i shall go and sleep and eat:)
BAI:)))

LOVE is in the air

2009-10-04T13:27:00.004+08:00

AYEEEERRR. ALL THE DIs WERE PRESENT IN THE WEDDING EXCEPT ME!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS MAN...... And they freaking told me that took a pic without me. worst, didnt leave a space for my face to be cropped in. FINE LUH.
Although im not there, i wanna wish ms seah erm.... happy marriage and hope she forms a soccer team soon? :P
today i woke up at 8 plus and went kovan to eat breakfast. Then my mom went to the florist to get a new plant. Firstly, she wanted a plant that is taller than me. yes, thats a tree. Then i was telling her how inconvenient it is to plant such a big pot of plant, so she decided to get a small one. Which is shorter than me. Yeah, thats abt it:)
SEE YA

The day i actually sacrificed myself to work

2009-10-03T22:17:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 8 plus today. And went orchard to sell my body. NO LAH. To work.
Had so much fun that i didnt want to go home. But i still did.
When i was on my way there. Something cute happened.
A lady was carrying this cute little girl and this girl kept pointing to me. Wanting her mom to come over to my side. Then her mom carried her over and she touched me. I was like OH HI:DDD so cute.
Then while working, this little girl wanted my balloon. I was really hesitant to give it to her cos i wanted it really badly. But in the end, i still gave it to her:((( Its okay....i can get another one another time:)
And i came ot the conclusion that im handsome hence people want to take newspaper from me. And yes, i leaked out my job (only for today)
At night, was at my ahma house. Watching my cousins play lanterns. Suddenly, his lantern caught fire and his brother took off his pants and extinguished the fire. WOW. The power of urine:)))))))
HAHA okay lets get out of the sick topic......
LALALA. Im bored. And at the same time, i am feeling crapped. Ahh forget it..
TILL THEN'

IT ENDED ALL SO SOON

2009-10-02T17:05:00.002+08:00

WELL, EOYs ended. At least theres only one more to go. I am quite convinced that i screw up english, chinese and science. ESP science. Well, i am prepared for the worst. Ma was telling me that i wont retain and all but......okay forget it. Since its already over, i will play as if i had never played before.
Today went kovan qi ji to eat lunch. Was having such a bad headache throughout the 2 papers today but felt okay after eating:DDDDDDDD haha im a glutton:DDDDDDD
Then went to look for thomas and fwens. I saw my elmo. I mean the shop's elmo.
Then tired, went home to rest.
Tonight, going out to celebrate:D
Tomo, going out to celebrate:D
Tomo de tomo, going out to celebrate:D
Tomo de tomo de tomo going to school to celebrate. Yeah. My head arh. Going to finish up the official last EOY. YIPPPEEEEEE!!!!!
Then no sch for 2 days. That would be so heavenly. So dun disrupt my sleep. Thank you very much:)
Yep that abt it. Will update soon:D

EOYs

2009-09-23T14:52:00.002+08:00

Its just one more day to EOYs. So i shall say my piece here before i get off the comp for days. Or should i say weeks? I dunno. Well, i like today's sermon. Its not abt the naked part:). But its just trusting god enough that he will make all things possible. Well, paster Reuben spoke abt how a prayer can help. People flipping over the paper hastily when the invigilator says start and there he was, praying for a good few minutes.
So today was kinda tensed, could feel the exam mood coming. Well, its just tomo.
I shall not say much.
I WILL GET OFF THE COMP. no facebook, no blogger, no nothing.
Maybe a short update soon. If i find time during the weekends. :)
JIAYOU everyone!
SEE YA.

DNT video session

2009-09-21T17:52:00.002+08:00

Well, i am still at Li Tong's house doing a ad for DNT. Well, it was really fun esp when i embarrassed myself just now. And we must really thank Li Tong for her time and her house for today. And we NG alot of times today. HAHA.
Owells, a proper update soon:)
Pictures will be uploaded soon.
Just wait and see:DDD
HEHE
Till then'

The game of acceptance

2009-09-18T19:51:00.002+08:00

The game of acceptance. Whether i want to accept it or not, its no longer a choice. The disappointment that comes by again. Knowing that you were the one, just made me realised that i lost a good friend. Knowing you for quite awhile. The times spent, those memories, based on what i know, you werent that sort. Now that everything changed overnight, i really want you to return back to what you were in the past so that i can still understand you. I am really really really sad to find out this truth and i just want you to know that its wrong. Sometimes, knowing the truth hurts.
I am so very tired. So please spare me the agony. please?
Today was okay. But i just wanna say something to a friend that im really care for. This post is dedicated to you, so you better feel honoured okay.
First things first. I am so sorry to make you cry today. I didnt mean it. And i just wanna tell you that: dun be sad. Even if you are, all your friends, family is there for you. They are always there to support you and to share the pain with you. So you are not facing all these problems alone. Never were you all alone in all these. If you think life is unfair, well i just have to say that: it was never fair. Problems set in so that we learn to be stronger day by day. So i just want you to cheer up and yeah~ HAHA wait arh....i lost for words. To tell you the truth, when i saw ur hidden tears this morning, i was really sad. I know i will never understand the pain that you are facing but those tears that i saw was so saddening. And dun ponder too much about it kay.
Wells, i should talk to you another time. I find it hard to express my words, my thoughts, my everything today. Monday then. Dun keep it inside you, you can talk to any of us. We will always be your listening ear:)
OWELLS, today im sick. Fell asleep during CME test. Slept for half an hour or so. Was feeling terrible but didnt want to go home. So tried to save energy by keeping quiet. I am lazy to sum up my day so i shall just put it this way: happy but yet unhappy. Guofang's philosophy: dun emo, later become emu. HAHA.
Till then'

7 more days

2009-09-17T20:37:00.002+08:00

Ohwells, its 7 more days. Today we had lotsa fun thanks to litong the joker. She was really really entertaining. So, we managed to do up our script. And yeah~ Was fun with her lame jokes around. And im running a temperature and a cough. Weekends coming. I cant wait.

Accomplishment

2009-09-15T15:59:00.002+08:00

I feel some sense of accomplishment. Cos my group manage to do up another piece of our product in just 30 mins. wow. We worked so well uh? Jealous not? -.-
HAHA well me and litong were thinking about those times we were so stressed up for dnt cos she kept rejecting our idea. Like 7 times? The feeling was crap. Cos we actually did research and all the sketchings and she just told us that she didnt want this idea. And we were like: damn you larh. HAHA Owells, now, we thought it was quite funny though. We all had fun cos all of us 'love' litong's lame joke. Chinese was surprisingly fun today. Dunno why. I was falling asleep at first till she told us to get into pairs to do a grp activity. So me and calista paired up and we had to come up with a adv. for the shui jing pao. And that da fei zhu thought it was a jewel and did not understand why that old woman was eating a jewel. Wth. And she kept saying its the same as a dumpling. Whapiangeh. And i owe her 2 and a poke. And so our adv. was ahem. One word: lame. Lame until people laugh. But humin was happy with it.
Then looked for the sec 1s. Shannon was awfully pissed. Well, they'll learn someday.
Till then.

FIRST

2009-09-14T15:54:00.002+08:00

HELLO. TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF TERM 4. And yep. Dragged myself to school. And i am tired after a hot long day yeah. I think PE is hilarious. Rachel couldnt stop falling. Like for consecutively 5 times??? Oh man....funny much. Ok, i promise to get off the computer at 4. HEH and now its going 4. I shall stop here.
BYES. will update soon if i find time:)

FOREVER

2009-09-13T12:45:00.002+08:00

Its been forever.
I just realised that i have been studying for life.
And now that im tired of it.
Not becos its hard or whatever.
Its more of the countless disappointments that i will get everytime results comes back to me.
Speaking of confidence and authority.
Frankly speaking, i have non of those.
It was meant to be put on show during cca.
But what i am really is,
is the total opposite.
I remember my mom used to suan me when i have such remarks on confidence and all.
She was like : yeah~ RIGHT~
Now, its already the last lap. And im tired.
And i believe everyone is. Who's not?
But will i get what i want?
I remember i cried there and then during drill competition.
Cos i finally got what we all wanted. It didnt come so easily.
I remember how i nearly got paralysed then.
Right before we even started, i had much difficulty in walking and standing up
Let alone marching and all.
HAHA i remember how painful those moments were.
And now, i have to put things aside and really study.
Easier said than done huh.
But i will try.

THE LAST SMS

2009-09-13T12:22:00.002+08:00

Well, yetserday was okay. Went to holland v. Met lionel there. Nothing much. Came home, revised. Talked. And slept at 1 plus. Read your last sms. Nearly cried. But theres nothing much i can do. I felt lost. But its okay.
Today im so gonna finish with my geog. Yep, nothing much.
bye bye.

Shop till you drop

2009-09-11T21:47:00.002+08:00

My mom woke me up early today. Cos shes going for massage with pa at 'the ultimate'. Somewhere located at orchard. So i went with them and waited in the changing room for 1.5 hours? And i fell asleep though. And i kept eating and sleeping and eating and sleeping. Cos they keep serving me desserts.:DDD Then shopped. Then went to visit YSL perfume in TANGS once again. OMG i love them okay. How i wished i had a bottle of it....but i only had a paper of it. And my left arm is aching badly. I remember wenhui was pestering me to hurry up when i was accessing the very last part yesterday. And my brain wouldnt want to function properly and i asked jolene what the hell is a thumb?? Lmao. Cos on the paper, it states thumb interlocked and fingers straightened. And ek was being really sick cos when she saw the phrase "body erect and shoulders held back" she was like aye, can you cancel that word out or not huh? Whapiangeh. Sicko. And i finally found my long lost anklet. YAY!
Shall end here-

DRILL TEST 09'

2009-09-10T16:34:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 6.10 cos my mom woke me up late. Then i bathed and changed into full-u. I was sleeping while changing okay. SO tiring luh. Then took bus to sch. Reached and took the clipboard. I was tearing. i dunno why. i think i kept yawning. Then i saw sec 1s falling in. Whoa to early huh. Then me and dionne decided to leave the pink clipboard to jolene since she came late. HAHAHAHA. I hope she doesnt read this :P When she reached, we passed the pink one to her and we were laughing like damn hard. Cos we told her that having the clipboard would make her mark like a sissy:PPPP Oh my gawd so funneeeeeee. Then went to the toilet and saw a polishing club. Whasei so early. Then falled in for uniform inspection. Then started with drill test. Since i have my break first, i was needed to help out at the theory side. Taking sec 1s were extremely tiring. Really. Not enough time though. I was super exhausted. But i like taking stage 2. It was fun and basically i think everything was quite perfect. And im surprised that shannon was so well behaved. She actually didnt stick out her tongue or look elsewhere or shake her butt or whatever. She was really damn guai. Stage 3 wasnt that bad. Then stayed to tally results and change out. Me and wenhui was so tired that we actually sat on the floor outside the staff room while waiting for ms heng to accept the unwanted boots and we actually lied down on teh stairs till dionne said that there was bird shit and dog shirt and we all jumped up. Went for lunch and went home straight. Jolene led me up a slope and i didnt dare to go downhill. LMAO.
Well, the first experience today was tiring. And oh my gawd i cannot believe that jolene was actually so strict today. And me being the lenient one. Well, not really though. I just dun find so much fault in them. OH WOW ITS FINALLY OVER. Saw guofang and calista today:)

RETURN

2009-09-09T10:33:00.002+08:00

Aye, my facebook is currently on maintenance. Sad right? Haiya.....
I want to facebook one leh. And ms lee!!! WHY HAVENT YOU SEND ME THE THINGS I NEED? I've been checking the email since yesterday ya.
1 MORE DAY TO DRILL TEST!!!
dear lord, i pray that you give the girls stength and wisdom as they go through drill test tomo. I pray that you guide them along the way and make sure whatever they have learnt will be put into practice. Teach them perseverance. In jesus name i pray,
amen.
Well, its drill test. ONCE AGAIN. And i havent revised through all the syllabus and i havent polished my boots. And im worried for the sec 1s. really. I think all the commanders are and they are gonna do a last minute teaching.
AND AND AND! Oh my gawd, how unlucky can i be??? Everytime when theres such events, be it camp, or whatever national event, whalao i have erhum. WTH.
Ahya, photos will be uploaded soon. Provided that our 'photographer' comes tomo.
I shall end here-

Nightmares

2009-09-08T10:04:00.002+08:00

I hate nightmares. Simply becos they scare me. If not, why are they called nightmares? So, they are called nightmares for a reason: to scare you at night. But there are some which makes you realise that you will regret your actions forever. But its already too late when things happen. It will just haunt you for life.

Tuesdays morning

2009-09-08T09:37:00.002+08:00

Oh man yesterday was so fun. So met up with liming and she was flipping through my childhood photos and she said i was cute? Alot of funny ones though. So we slacked on my bed. And talking abt bed, it reminds me of the sms from drill head. She wanted to say: have a google email so that bianca can ADD you to the drill committee group BUT they typed: have a google email account to that bianca can BED you to the drill committee group. WHAPIANGEH i couldnt stop laughing. Then sickopig came over too. We could not focus on our work cos we kept playing and laughing. And we were talking abt bringing sunscreen to camp. And instead, why not bring skII mask. LMAO sia. Then we started the drawing competition. HAHA. Then last night, my mom was like: why your hand got heart shape? Then why got 'my ass'? You love ur ass alot isit? LMAO. Then became the handphone inspection. Piangeh. Then went for lunch and sent sickopig home. Then i couldnt believe that we actually started studying without talking abt other stuff. We really focused on the papers. Oh gosh, quite productive luh huh. Then packed my room. Sparkling clean:))))) Then went down to the living room to talk and gave a name called foxtress. HEH. Well, then sent liming down. Sighhhh fun times always ends.
Today i woke up crying. I had such a terrible nightmare that i would rate it the most saddening one in my entire life. Oh my gawd. Lesson learnt from the nightmare: your words and actions may cause a person to perish forever. And that you cant find them back ever again. Its either all or nothing.
And i really love the present that i got for rachel. I want it mummy, but you just wouldnt allow.
:((((((((

Whenever

2009-09-07T10:58:00.001+08:00

Whenever im sad, shannon's blog is the best cure. I dunno why but it states the reality of life.

HOLIDAYS

2009-09-07T10:36:00.002+08:00

Hello weekend was okay. Went parkway to get things for my friends and contingents. And i just realised i didnt like coffee cake. Its so sweet~ uh~
Today is monday. Having a studying session with liming afterwards. I wonder if my studying session will work out. SIGHHHH...back to the books. Anyway, i went marina yesterday and saw the youth scrabble weekend. So fun, i wished i could play too. And i dialled esther quite late yesterday, asking stupid questions. I just realised theres nothing much to consult her for though. JUST MARK. And i slept at 1 cos i was watching a movie and talking to my ma. And i fell asleep in my parents room hence i slept there through the night.
And i cant believe i have high blood pressure. The doctor said it was due to stress. I am stress? Oh wells, my face turns red whenever im nervous. HEHEHE. And that my mom said im bottling up alot of things. Haiya.... eoys around the corner.
Nothing much to post abt. Another day then:D

LAST DAY

2009-09-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

Finally its holidays!!! WHEEEE~ Well sch was alright today.
PE was slacking through the entire period as ms ng didnt come for lesson.
Maths was again boring. As usual.
Watched ice age for music. It was nice. And i wanted to cry and i had the urge to run down to mandai to pay her the last visit. But i didnt.
History just slack.
Live lesson abt bgr. Nothing much.
Took back report book and his remarks were kinda long. So he talked to me abt my remarks over results.
Clean the class. Oh man its finally sparkling clean:D
Lunch was funny. Shannon couldnt stop burping. And amanda forced her to say excuse me to everyone with our name. one by one.
So left with 2 periods of chinese. Talk and talk and talk abt textbook. I was trying to hard to keep myself awake. Then da ben dan gave me a peg with a heart.
AND AND AND. She kissed my hugging partner. EEEEWWW.
GB. OH WOW. I seriously have nothing much to say. Took stage 3 so pangseh my contingent. Uniform inspection first and they took so long to adjust their uniform in the toilet. Haiyo. Then i was talking to bianca and harlene. SUDDENLY! She went near me and pointed at me saying: you dont command like this. Becos i was placing my hand in the pocket in front of the contingent. In my heart, i was like: WHALAO!!! im not commanding lor. Im talking. Then she also scloded me for the way i stand. OMG larh. You very free isit? Then some girls cried abt the demotion thing. For that, i have nothing to say. Unreasonable creatures. Then next what? Strip off DI title? Poor attendance, sl and asl blamed. Poor drill? DIs at fault. You so clever you go teach lor. Haiya... suan le larh. Xiao hai zi bu yao gen ni men zhe xie lao ren ji jiao. HEHE. Then ran to change out of uniform. My hair was soaking wet. Then talked in the assembly area with jolene and all. Then my mom came so i had to leave. It was rather late when i actually left the sch though. :D
Now im completely exhausted. Really.

I think

2009-09-03T18:09:00.000+08:00

I think im suffering from TB. HAHA JK. Cos i've been coughing very badly.

White shirt, Black pants

2009-09-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

I got up today feeling really abnormal. Ok maybe not abnormal my instincts told me something happened. And i ate my breakfast and got into the car. Someone rang my father's phone in the car and he started crying. And i was like oh what happened? Then he explained to me. I was so reluctant to accept the fact. I was really really reluctant. And i was too shocked to say a single word. How can this happen? My heart was shattered into a million pieces by then when i reached sch. So i was at sch, trying to hide the shattered me. So during self revision, i tried my outmost best to put things aside. So i decided to accompany amanda to count the no. of hearts she actually folded. 425 in total. So many huh~ Recess was kinda ok. Maths was passing really slowly, english too. Bio was amusing? Mrs phua and her funny teaching. The last two periods i spent it with care. SLEEP. Lunched and went for public speaking competition. Was alright but the results were unexpected. Stayed back in school for a while. Ate in the canteen and then went up to class. Wanted to pour out what exactly happened but i didnt in the end. So i went home.
Im wearing white shirt, black pants. Guess where am i going? This will ans your question to what exactly happened this morning.

WED

2009-09-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

Bio was ultra funny. Mrs phua was telling us about her process of delivery. Then we were laughing and laughing and some of us actually erased the thought of having a baby. Chinese was alright. Art was okay. Except the fact that we kept throwing clay at each other. Then the clay dirtied my pinafore. Went for chapel, sermon was good. Its abt staying focus and stay away from distractions. Well i guess i was pretty distracted nowadays. Then slacked through the rest of the day by having corridoors. Public speaking was zomg the scariest. I felt that my heart was gonna jump out anytime. Then my face was so red. Then went for nyaa. I was sooo off form today. Like everytime i bowl, it always get into the gutter. And i got pek cek. Then the instructor was like you are not concentrating and all that sort. I am okay. Then went home at 6.30 reached home at 7. Went to hougang to eat then sun bian get a few pen. I like my pen:DDD And ma bought me macadamia nuts but i am not suppose to touch it until my throat gets better. And i dun think its getting any better so.... Anyways, im tired. NITESSS *yawn*

The week

2009-09-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

Teachers day cum aces day was awesome. Aces was some really suaku actions and i cant believe those small actions could actually make me sweat. Wulala lose weight. Concert was funny. It was really fun and i stole 3 heart stickers from the floor. Then went to houngang then proceed to kovan as we were bored. Many things happen along the way which i shall not say it here. HEHE.

Go away

2009-08-30T17:08:00.001+08:00

Mummy, please. Give me a break.

Dear you

2009-08-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

Dear you, you made me so heartbroken you know. The words that you said just made it seem so......i dunno. Im lost. And thats it, im lost. I've lost too. Im afraid to lose you but at the same time, you want me to go look for someone else. I dunno how to tell you how much i dun want to lose you. My gawd....

Saturday out

2009-08-29T15:33:00.000+08:00

Went to orchard with parents. It has been really long ever since the last time i actually shopped. Had a drink at macs in the morning then was rather surprise to see someone outside tangs. And i love the perfume there you know...omg so nice.... then my parents kept taking newspaper from the mom, then the dad then my friend. Then my mom forced me to give my friend the chocolate and i kept whining. And she even told me to go accompany him and i told her that he will be disturbed by me if i ever go and accompany him. Then she let me off. :DDD Was walking and suddenly someone called to piss me off. You are asking me for a favour and yet you expect me to go home straight away. How selfish can you get? And i actually asked if i can help at night and you just gave me such a rude ans. Omg i just slammed my phone and was like then wtf do you expect me do? And i believe that if you don't want to do something with a willing heart, you might as well reject the offer in the first place. Ahya forget it.

Alone

2009-08-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

How i wished you could leave me alone. Since you doubt me, i suggest leaving me alone is the best cure for you.

Facing the giants

2009-08-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

Well, today got back history paper. I passed on the dot. 50.0. Well, most of us failed common test paper. Screw that teacher who failed me. Time passed so slowly during maths. kept looking at my watch, watching the seconds ticked by. Slacked through the entire music lesson and talked abt escape theme park and all that thrilling games:D I was extremely tired out today hence i was behaving weirdly as said by liming and yi hua. Well nothing much though...live lesson to discuss abt teacher's day present. Chinese only 2 periods instead of 4!!! YESSS!!! WHOO!!! Wrote zuo wen. I have a really strong instinct that shes gonna read out my zuo wen and make a fool out of it. Anyways, went for lunch after that and polished boots. It finally shined:)))) I love myself. Fall in for roll call. It has been a very very long time ever since i last did roll call. And firstly there was no timer and i was shocked okay. I was like looking around for jolene. Then dav was like sheryl time! I was like huh omg huh orh ok. Then i like devotion today. This is like one of the first time i actually sat through the entire devotion cos hcl eat up devotion. And devotion today was touching. Ok maybe not. It was impactful and they were talking abt the movie. Its abt the football coach who struggled with many failures in his life. career, family and etc. And, i was touched by the determination though. And i just realised that i actually admitted deafeat even before i tried. And she said championship trophies will collect dust but its actually the memories not the things. Failures are hard to accept but without failures, we wouldnt learn how to be a better person. Well, it was really good. Worship was funny. Yihua suddenly turned off all the lights and it became a disco ground. Badgework was alright. Did some girl stuff. Like bracelets and keychains. I thot i would suck at that but it turned out okay. I did keychains instead. Drill was good. Im really glad that they did well today even after all those scoldings from me. And officers and seniors praised them. Well, i guessed they were good today. Anyways its all their hardwork that counts. Have to do a writeup to officer abt our contingents progress and our aim. COUNDOWN TO DRILL PRACTICE BEFORE DRILL TEST: 1 more practice. WOW. At least i finished the syllabus. But i havent perfect it. OMG moses!!! Im so scared. Then talked to ms heng abt drill test with jolene. What drill test and zonal ones. Whalaoeh. Then stayed with jolene and bianca for a little while and ate sweets again. SUGAR RUSHHH AGAIN. And ms heng kept aksing me what happened to me today. Like did something happen? Are you okay? you looked so tired. You looked as if you blanked out. I was like huh?! oh tired tired. Then went home and yeah~
took this from liming's blog. I lazy to repost so i copy paste from hers. ENJOY:))))
yesterday when we were in perisia,
litong wanted to buy ice-cream or ice-pop
then me and sheryl there.
then sheryl stop litong form opening the cover
SHERYL: eh, you dun want to treat liming food then i dun let you buy
LITONG: you think you own this shop one arh?
SHERYL: eh, nono. i dun own this shop. I own this thing. *hug the whole thing. the ice cream and the ice- pop that thingy'
YEAH thats abt it. Going orchard tomo. HAIYA...ma is going to shop like mad again.

P.S

2009-08-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

p.s ben news actually said my lips is squishy???? I was like HUH?! We got kiss before meh???

IM FINALLY BACK TO BLOGGING

2009-08-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO GUYS. Wow i see that my tagboard id flooded with all sorts of things:P
Well, i havent been online for the past few days. Like 4 DAYSSSSS!!! I havent touched the computer at all lehhh. So proud of myself:D HAHA. For the past few days, was feeling a little crapped up. Esp tuesday. You wont want to see how i screamed at the girls during drill. It was terrible max. Cos practically i failed maths and eng summary. And i didnt do that well for bio. Hence i was really disappointed with myself as i really did study for it. But art, geog and hcl did made up for it. HAHA. I shall work harder.
Anyways, bowling yesterday was ok larh, as usual. Except for the fact that brenda was standing in the next lane beside me. Suddenly! She threw the ball and it actually bounced into my lane. I was like Piangeh. And we couldnt stop laughing you noe. It was really hilarious. And that gay instructor actually held noelene's hands. Whapiang damn funny. Then lim wei was the most entertaining one for the day. My gawd... i promised her not to say. So...shussh. Then went to heartland to make keys with limwei and carine. And they pangseh me after that. Then i saw jolene at KFC. Hence i decided to accompany her for awhile. Then i saw this boy in cat high uniform, but i couldnt confirm it was him. Then in the end went to the mrt with him. I swear it was damn embarassing. Oh my gawd. So we both kept quiet. And im sorry to make you wait for an hour plus:((( Anyways, i dream of bear yesterday.
Well today was ok larh, i think chinese oral was a little screwed up. Plus the fact that hou lao shi kept laughing at me and calling me xiao ke ai. Whalao damn distracting can... and she kept giving clues sia. Damn funny. Then went to meet the rest who were all waiting for me. Then saw melissa and wanted to hug her but i looked away. Then chua pushed melissa away and hugged me. AND ME BEING naive, thinking that the person is melissa, hugged her back till i turned my head back and got a shock of my life. Treat liming to ice-cream and litong was the funniest. Gosh. We kept poking fun of her and she actually believed.
Well, i hate the anxiety before orals, guess what? Just right before my turn, i have cramps. Whapiang can??? Then during lunch time, i stood up and everything gushed out and i quickly sat down. OMG. So uhhh~
Then walked liming home and walked home myself too. Yeah thats abt it.
Blog another time then:)))

GIRLS

2009-08-24T16:48:00.000+08:00

Wells shannon said PL girls are bitchy. HAHA. No comments-.- im one?

Feel lykit

2009-08-24T16:32:00.000+08:00

I have a sudden urge to chop my fingers once again. Like how i did it today. Using red markers to draw hearts and stars on my fingers. They are fun you noe....you guys should try. But please do remember to rub it off before cca.
I dun feel like doing Bio paper. I had a shock of my life when i received it. The male reproductive organ was printed big on the first page. LMAO xia si wo. -.-

UNLUCKY

2009-08-24T15:56:00.000+08:00

I shall explain why am i unlucky today. First of all, i forgot my wallet which means no nametag, no badge, no money, no ezelink card. Which means, empty uniform, no food and absence of sch. Piangeh. THEN, i realised i forgot my keys too. Which means, no going home. Wells at least im at home now, thanks to my ah ma:)))) I love her to bits:D Took back arguementative essay. Well at least im contented with what i got:) Took back Lit too. Recess was as usual. Had 2 free periods of Bio. She gave out some notes and every page that we flipped to was diagrams of reproductive organs. WOW. And i am not sick, im just stating what i saw. Firstly, i did some notes BUT IN THE END, i ended up in a deep conversation with guofang, shannon and liming. We were talking about some serious yet we cant do anything kinda conversation. Then suddenly, amanda and calista joined us. Then we talked abt bernita. Amanda said she dreamed of bernita and touched her. omg. Ultimate sadness. Then before i could actually say anything, i cried. omg so embarrassing. Then history was ultimate boring sia. PE was boring. IT test was darn boring. Went home with guofang and thats all.

GUYS

2009-08-24T14:28:00.001+08:00

hello Guys!!! Currently in the IT lab. Im unlucky today. Tell you guys later:PPP

Trust

2009-08-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

Oh my gawd. I cant believe i was so stupid to patch up with you. Now i understand why people said i was stupid and that why am i called DA BEN DAN. Sheryl ho, when can you ever become smarter?