okay, i havent been blogging for so damn long. So im feeling guilty man. 3 months, my gosh!
anyways, many things happened in this 3 months. Yup, alot of things happened.
DI test and course......
passed the test hence went for the course which cost me so much of pain
the test was preety scary as u can finally see some really gd drills throughout the entire contingent. EXCEPT for the fact that some of them talked while marching and stuff which is like super idiotic. I love course but my shirt was irritating me so i couldnt really concentrate that well, do u actually have any idea how mega is my national t? it went all the way back when i was marching and i was like: oh best! haha. but there were some embarrassing times as well which i dun feel like telling u all.
DRILL COMPETITION 2009
our effors are paid off yea? I mean its a GOLD after 6 months of training which i somehow pondered over and thot it was rather not veh worth it but still, in the sense that its worth it. cos its 4th coy's name. maybe i was really pissed and so many things happened in contingent, be it friends and be it family but its the past. SO i shall just shaff it one side and devote myself back to drill again. when i think back the times where i always get disappointments from all of u, i really felt like giving up but yea....we train real hard and god sees it so....a GOLD! I really swear that we train in the morning and till night esp when nearing the date. But actually only a few turned up but its okay...its still a gold.
On the very day itself, it was so scary and pioneer 1 got so freaked out by the surrounding as it was quiet and big so they all cried. We prayed and prayed. And comfort them and ya.. cos we know that we alr trained so hard for it.....like really hard so we have nothing to worry abt. But they were more scared for inspection than for the competition....dunno why
When we ended our performance, i nearly drop dead okay. My entire right foot was swollen so other officers from other schs have to warp my foot like ba zhang okay. And on the bus, it was so funny man. Ms lee and her unglamorous painful high heels. Ms chang was so funny cos she was telling us abt if we are tired, we can go to ms heng for SPA. Not the relaxing way but the test in science. What the hell, and ms heng was like she use salt from the dead sea to help us do spa in the chemistry lab. Haha so hilarious. I really miss those times. GO PIONEER 1!
So basically, i didnt do that well for ct and i really regret it to the max! But i promise to work harder. And sadly, i had many problems with friends around me.
One cheated on us, we gave one more chance and she didnt trust me and a few more chances were given to her to change her attitude towards us, she missed it all.....so what is gone is gone.
Next one was my close friend. I talked to her when i have problems and i found out she was spying on me. She didnt trust me. AND I WANT TO SAY THIS ONE MORE TIME.....I HATE PEOPLE WHO DUN TRUST ME! and pls get this into ur head. If u dun trust me, i regret having a friend like u.
next, i dun wanna talk abt her. But i should. she was so close to me last time, she didnt trust me, so she and the second one was alliance which i dun give a shit alr. I will never think that we will get back to the times in the past as much as u want to. u said sorry. isit real? im tired of u. seriously, im really confused by the 3 of u. spare me.
SO BASICALLY LIKE I SAID: I HATE PEOPLE WHOM DUN HAVE TRUST IN WHATEVER TRUTH IM SAYING. IF ITS NOT TRUE, I WOULNT BE SO ANGRY NOW. COS U DUN TRUST ME, as a friend, okay wait. whats the point of being my friend when u dun trust me? For fun isit? Or becos u are lonely? or becos with my presence, it will do u good. Let me tell u this, im not gonna hold DI name outside drill okay. theres no such thing and no such person so.....stop going around with me just becos of that name. Forget abt bribing me. JUST 1 word: stop.
I need a break. To think through what shitty attitude i have. Becos of u, jolene, i have a shitty attitude. wow. so when im suppose to be angry with u, i have attitude problems. how the hell am i suppose to forgive u in 1 day? I bet u cant too. i need time to think as u did something that i hate most. Being a DI and u did that. I need to think. SHERYL HO! THINK!