I"LL BE OFF TO TRAINING CAMP...........will be back soon. BUHBYE.
Dear lord,
i pray that everything will go smoothly
and i will not feel so lost
and i pray for our safety and the good weather
and we will have fun
in jesus name i pray,
amen

So, i shall just start with school today. Damn slack. And i felt like asking one question. IS THE WEATHER HOT OR HOT ARH? whapiangeh damn warm pls. Its warm and humid. Had a teacher-student conference. Nothing much. Didnt talk much either. Just these 2 words: no problem. Then fill up some form. Spring clean our class. I finally saw the amount of dirt our class accumulated. Damn dusty.
Zoo was fun. Finally my buddy was a nice girl. Shes cute too. Shes nice. And HOT. Haha. At least it was so much better than the previous one. After that one, i practically had no confidence in small children.
Now im thinking abt corporals. Really worried. Im not sure of how to teach and its just 2 days away. Im going early on sat to sit down and bianca is going to calm us down. AHHHH. I hope i come back alive.
And it just reminds me of kindergarden days today. I remembered how i was bullied in school by friends and even teachers. Then i didnt tell anyone. Then i remember that i cried everyday while walking to school. That there was once that my mom saw me going to school with my grandma and she saw me crying so hard. And i kept saying i didnt wanna go to school. Haha i still remember those times. And she told me how heartbroken she felt abt that as she thinks something must had happened in school thats why i cry everyday on my way to school. Damn sad. I hate my kindergarden days. Thats why i hate people who bullies me. And i remember theres this boy who always helps me and we always run around. But sadly, i forgot his name. And i forgot how he looked like but i just vaguely remembered him. Haha. So sad. I miss him. But he probably had changed. I wouldnt know.
Today was just ultimate fun and ya............

Anw melissa says i should post abt her being A LITTLE pretty today. Whapiangeh her skin abit thin arh. Haha today was so much better. Better than what i thought i will be. Chapel was fun. I love the concert hall!!! And our class held a wedding! OMG it was freaking funneh. They went to the extend of preparing everthing, their speech and so on...... damn hilarious. Stayed back and spent some time in class and in the canteen. Then walked back to class again and talked to melissa. Talked abt many weird stuff and kept laughing and laughing.
Yesterday, i left the room. Cos i thought that was such a total waste of my time. You kept repeating urself andd i freaking heard the same 3 places that we are considering for freaking 3 times. And i thought you were going to say something important. But no. You kept making fun of some words. And repeating the same old thing. So why cant i leave? Let me tell you why i should leave: Firstly, im not going. Secondly, i keep hearing the same things. Thirdly, you were not serious abt it at all. What sq 1 go with sq 8. What kind of biasness is that? You want to organize and in the end, dump my squad. Oh please. Have some justice. So why cant i leave since im not going? Why cant i leave when you are talking crap? Then you just had to keep complaining on and on to other people. Tell you what, pls let it go. For the sake of my peaceful life. Ms ***** wants you to stop all ur immature acts. And she wants you to delete those hating here hating there things off ur blog. She thinks you are childish. I have no idea how she knows but she knows. END OF STORY.
AND someone just keep annoying me. Its damn annoying okay. There is a reason why u had a leadership role so cant u just do what u are assigned to??? Must people do things for you?! Must a DI help you in everything? I can only help you in drill man, i cant do anything else. What am i suppose to do for you man??? I cant tell you everything and help you do up everything u know. I have my things to do too. I cant plan up everything for u. WTH. I find u irritating me thats it. AND u invaded my privacy if u didnt know that.
Camp is coming up and im gonna cry soon. Im stressed up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really am going to fail my national project. I have read up on the manual and nothing seems to be going in. i will just try my best on sat. JOLENE!!!!!!! I need help!

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Thanks to the chinese teacher, my day just got killed. hate her larh. I thank you so much that my chinese sucks. And that doesnt mean that i didnt pay attention. Fuck you. I offically hate you. And you just diu ni men china people de lian. So i practically kept extremely quiet during her lesson and one of her phrase just made me felt like puking. Who would want to love you???!!!
YOU TELL ME!!!! So xing zhu de kind of comforted me. And shes bias, thats all i can say. END OF THIS SUBJECT.
Ms chang assured me that coporals will be fun. Becos shes the one who planned the camp. And im thankful for that.
I cant wait for chapel this week. I need some source of comfort cos my life have been rather screwed.
So today was alright (if its not for that particular subject which i dun wanna mention), homec was fun. This was the first time i could actually sit down still and have some discussion for 3 entire periods, not really gossiping though. But i really wish that people dun bully a particular girl which i feel sorry for. HAHA. So emo. I hate it when people starts going up to tell teachers that im lesbian. IM NOT. And i hate it even more when teachers believe those words and start talking and harping abt it. Thnaks. ANYWAYS, after school, walked home with Liming. I think talking does help me to de-stress. After talking abt so many things, i felt so much better. Becos, when i walked out of the hcl room, someone just had to test my mood by saying that i 1 leg take 2 ships. WTH.
HAPPY BATHDAY ZINA!!!!!!!!! MY FAV SQUAD MATE!!!! You have been the best:)]

OMG im excited for this one. Actually not really. But more on the scared side. Im freaking scared. AHHHHHH. Being the youngest DI isnt that good. ITS scary. I just received an email stating: HEY THERE YOUNG ONE, you will be taking a contingent next week. Pls note that you will have to teach reporting.
For a moment, i stunned. I was like WTH. I myself dun even know how to do formal reporting man. How am i going to teach. So i read up the drill manual as told. And nothing goes into my brain, as u can tell. Im screwing this national project up. Kill me.

Ahhhh im so freaking gonna go out after school holidays with khor to eat CHOCOLATES AND CAKES. HE's currently PDA-ing in front of me. Yucks. I LOVE CHOCOLATE. AND SMALL SMALL CAKES. And foooooooooooood.

shall be a good girl. And forget about you. And not rebel some chinese teacher. And try not to scream at her freaking parents now. WTH. IRRITATING larh. I hate people who just keep asking me to finish homework, which i already did. Pack my bag, which i will always do. And just keep making me do things related to school. I finally have a weekend to rest and u just keep nagging and nagging. Once, i finished my homework, there comes the pile of assessment. And you kept bringing up the past and compare my marks with my classmate. WTH. NO LIFE. I have already done my best and what the hell do u want me to do? I am trying so hard here struggling school with cca. And u kept scolding me for staying back in school everyday. And think that im out with my friends. HALO????!!!!! Im freaking in school man. AHHH tired.

Had fun today!!!!!!!!! I woke up late today becos i practically skipped P6 open house. So i woke up mand did some maths and then played the comp and sms a little and i finally got to go out! YUP I LOVE THE OUTSIDE. So i had fun. Ryan called and chat for a while. Thats abt all.

Today was actually ok but some chinese teacher just freaking spoiled my freaking day. Got scolded by her and she sure can drag man. She want to scold then scold me larh, why must she freaking drag discipline with my cca. HUH?! I felt so darn pissed when she said that we threw our cca's face and that she was trying to imply that our cca did not properly teach us discipline. WTH. And she stated that HCL girls are always very guai. WTH i very pai can?! Anyway, i just hate it when she insulted our cca. Like she very discipline like that? HUH?! She want to compare anot? I know i was wrong to play or whatever crap larh but she went overboard. And she finished and i just walked off. And some people just have to make my life so much worse by blaming me for what i did. That i freaking cried and ran off to change and everything. Saw her at her volleyball place and i was like WTH. This was the freaking first time i had to stay back and listen to all her crap whiloe she insults our cca and all. And this was the first time i got scolded badly. Actually not really. Then devo was fun and drill was just............ Taking stage 3 then sudden change of plan, then took stage 1 and almost died teaching them. I cant teach man and i dun have the patience. Then scolded them for being so freaking slack in drill and told them to stop laughing and talking man. And that chinese teacher just stared at me. I was like WTH do u want from me huh?! Never see me scream before isit?! Then she kept looking at me and i grew louder and louder by the minute. And i freaking scolded her coach for bouncing dozens of balls at my poor girls. Like wth. U wanna aim, aim properly can anot? Dun keep throwing balls at them rite???? I mean like we were so freaking nice to let u guyts have so much space and there u are throwing balls at us. And the worst is that u see a ball flying towards you but u just cant 'siam' it. Ah heck. Then was teaching 2 girls. OMG i cant take stage 1 anymore!!!!! I was like trying so hard to teach them properly and there they are talking among themselves. Then i freaking ticked them off. And seniors agrees that this batch of girls are seriously one of the most difficult to teach. Becos they dun listen and dun wanna try and just roll their eyes at you that kind of thing so ya...... i need my stage 3 back....big time! Then went home and reached home at 8.
Dear lord,
i need a better day. Im going to take some rest tomo. and wished that life was so much easier.
And i pray that i wont be pissed and scream and rebel against the teacher when i see her on monday for chinese. In jesus name i pray,
Amen.

I dun fucking care whether you read this or not. If you didnt, i hope you read it clearly. If u did, i hope i never knew you. You told someone that i told you to watch your drill attitude. Its that the only thing you are capable of doing? Only capable of accusing people? Do you think i talk to such people? NO. So why will i even bother to go up to you to talk abt u and ur drill attitude? You think i very free isit? U think i bother to criticise ur drill? Halo, im educated. I dun go around telling people and point out their flaws or whatever crap. I have respect for seniors, so no matter i dislike you or not, i still respect you during cca. But you were the one who kept going on and on.....non stop. So you think by doing that, you can get ur aim- let esther knows sheryl is this sort of person? Oh please. I think i have been far too nice to you, so now, you better watch your words. You think by spoiling my image, you can make people side you more? Childish thoughts. Ultimate immature. Just wanna tell you that, DUN ACCUSE PEOPLE. Since when did i talk to you? You think i would? I will just puke at the sight of you. That simple. SCRAMM.

Got back 2 papers. Cant be bothered with marks anymore....
Then there was a talk from our teacher. I somehow agree to that. I know many people were very against him after the talk. But i just have to say that thats the real fact. And i concluded that everytime we say sorry, we dont mean it. So whats the point of saying when u dont mean it? Maybe we shall just change for the better instead of being crazy over today's topic. But i somehow felt it was too late, we have changed to the state where we dont ask. But just do whatever we like. And i dont think thats showing respect. Even though some may dislike him alot, but whats the point of making urself angry? Why not just treat him the way we treat other teachers, by showing respect, EVEN THOUGH YOU DUN LIKE HIM. Okay drop the matter.....
Then PE was ultimate slackness. Slacking away.....but some people just kept going on and on over the matter. Haiya......... Then realised what went wrong. Its actually thanks to me, i have caused so much hurt to someone else.
im tired.
i wanna sleep alr.

I like listening to songs......
Anyway, i like EVERTHING TO ME by avalon..........its nice.......
And i wanna eat cakes........and apple strudel!!!!!! And i wanna read magazines and i want to watch PI LI MIT!!!!!!!!! Yeah.

Okay, today was quite okay i guess. Met esther in the morning.
Then assembly was simply...........u know what i mean. Then xing zhu de went up and give announcemnt. She was super soft. I was like: hey, she got so soft one meh? Aiyo she shy arh?
Then school was okay. Homec was super fun. We made smoothie and then, me and estee was like super hyped up. We made banana with mango and milk. It taste okay. And then we tried making papaya with milk. And we failed. It somehow taste very bad. Its like bitter, sour, and yuck........like dentist that liquid that they put into ur mouth. Ya that taste. Si bei gross okay. It was choky too. Then estee added in lots of juices then it taste okay.
Yup then today we took back chinese paper. Somehow improved a little. But was contented with the marks. I thot i would fail it, but my compre sucks anyway. Then was comforting shannon and all. Somehow it just brought me back to the chemistry thing. But aiya......what to do? Oh and shannon brought 120 socks today. And everyone was staring at her. And liyan and all were damn cute larh. they were like: omg why u buy so many? HUH? u everyday change one arh? Disposable one arh? Ahahaha it was damn funny.

Next, i've finally learnt not to take pity on you. Isnt that great?
Recess, U came and sit right in front of me. My friends were like: what the hell? Why so attract attention? I was like thinking: leave me alone. I dun want to be blame to give u problems again. I really dunno whats ur problem larh? U see me, u not happy. U never see me, u also not happy. What do you want? HUH?! I juat wanna tell u that: actually, sometimes, its not that people lied to you. Its that u chose not to believe them. So what can they do? They were speaking the truth and there u are saying that she lied and stuff. So u think that everyone lied to you. Thats not the way man. Paranoid larh.
So what makes u think that sitting in front of me will get my attention? HUH? I doesnt help if u realised. That day, u just came up to me and nicole to ask if u can stand here. Why do u need so much attention? If u are unhappy with me, shouldnt u just leave me alone? U shouldnt be trying so hard to talk to me. By finding so many excuses just to find a topic to talk to me. u think i stupid or what huh? My friends have taught me not to take pity on people. I guess its true. Pity u for what? U were so mean to people and do u really expect me to pity u? Now i understand why people dislike you. You will never stop bringing up the past to criticise people. Maybe i have changed, but i finally learnt not to kenna bullied so easily. Shannon says that we shouldnt pity people. Its not worth. Why not just leave me alone? This is my last post dedicated to you. I dun wanna ever hear from u ever again.

Science really killed me. Chem paper came back. And i scored a F9. Okay maybe i suck but a least i know i've worked hard. I remember i've sat down there for abt 15 hours??? to study for chem and yet i scored a freaking F9. Maybe i was careless, i dunno. Basically i just need to work much harder next term. Im not going and i cant afford to screw up Bio. I need to freaking score well for my Bio so that i dun drop or retain. Cos i know i didnt do well for geog, history, maybe Lit and chinese and MATHS. Just kill me larh.....im dying....After handing up the paper, i was alr at the most i dunno wad to say state. And liming was like sheryl, what did u get? I somehow thot that i should just tell her how badly i scored cos we cant hide anything, its like printed big on the marksheet. So i told her and she went OMG then i freaking cried okay. I dunno why i cried so easily but all i knew is that all my hard work put in studying for chemistry were gone. All i knew was i didnt do well and ya.... my time and effort was wasted. And maybe i cried becos i think i bottom the class, i dunno, not sure and probably dun wanna know. I can just imagine mr teo coming up to me once again and asking me what i will do abt it. Last term, i said it was becos i had no time due to competition. What abt this term? HUH?! I dun think: i will try harder next term is a good answer. Becos no matter how hard i tried didnt work out. And when my friends who scored so much higher than me, even though they failed too, but to me, im dead. They said they will drop or retain or maybe in a not so good class. What abt me? shit larh. im just going to study and keep studying. Thats it. I post later.

Omg im so freaking going to watch it during the june hols! I watch some scenes of it and i want to watch it! AHHHHHHHuh. Im so gonna watch it. Today have many many many homework but i decided to play first. As u can see, im posting and watching videos when im suppose to do my homework. But heck larh. I can do it later. HEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHE i wanna watch Pi Li MIT! Not becos aaron yan is in it, but the show just looked freaking nice okay. I like gui gui. Shes cute. Anyway, commanding practice today was not bad. Drilled for a while and then sat down and talked. We always got so far fetched till we even started talking abt how disgusting some people were. And then we will say: EY? I thot we were supposed to talk abt how to improve 4s drill. Then we started talking nonsense again.....and again and again. YA. I wanna watch pi li mit. Omg i really want to watch leh. i want holidays to come fastly. The went home with jolene. Laughed so much becos they were some guys in front of me talking to some guys behind me and then they were freaking gay okay. Omg they were like ohmygosh in that high pitched voice. And i was like Oh my gosh. Then the guy somehow stepped on my shoe and he was like oh man im so sorry. im really really sorry. sorry. I was like okok its okay really its okay. Then i turned to jolene and we were like wo de tian arh. It was funny though. I was freaking out in the bus okay. Oh yes i remember that i will have to tutor shannon with her long commands.

To put it this way, quite bad. Yesterday was really bad. Today, i wished it was better but.......
Today, english lesson is so freaking fun okay. Watched video for the entire 2 periods. And the videos were damn funny. And retarded. So i was laughing and laughing till i cried becos me and yi hua was like laughing at the video where sexy girls dance and she always watches that video in the staff room. I was like wth omg i can imagine her dancing while marking our papers in the staff room. Anyway, it was just really really funny.
Then idpw was okay...........shannon and rachel came up with the idea of chest guard. know knee guard and ya chest guard. The idea just came abt becos shannon once slided down a slope and then her chest bled. Okay..........
Then chinese nothing much. Combined class with 2.1.
Chapel was alright. Didnt have worship. Just watched some movies about having green noses. And i was somehow the act cute girl. Haha.
Then went back to class and slacked. And was annoyed so decided to turn my attention away.
I doubt tomo will be any better.

So as u can see, today isn't my day. Today sucked. A BIG TIME! Both cca and school just went wrong.
School----------well not really but still is bad
Chemistry: i couldn't understand the new teacher. full stop.
English: I SCREW UP MY CREATIVE COMPONENT. Everyone couldn't remember our lines. Hence it somehow got mixed up and so the next person who is suppose to talk didnt know what to say. Hence it was a complete screwed up skit. And thanks to me, i couldn't remember my lines, there was a sudden pause. Last time also becos of me, this time is still becos of me. Sorry guys. Im so gonna prepare damn freaking early for the next creative component okay. I hate last minute preparations! And becos we rushed the script through, we didnt have time to practice. Ya so i screwed up creative component.
Math: I was so proud of myself that i could actually concentrate so well today during class. I kept so quiet for an entire period and just sat right there and did my maths! AHHHHH and time passed so quickly. I screwed up this term's maths. Im so gonna be a good girl and do lots of maths practices.
CCA----------
Evrything went wrong. I hate myself.
Prayer meeting: Since the sec 4s step down, the sec 3s step up. Ya. And then no one listened to them. People were like talking among themselves instead of praying and laughing when we were supposed to sing songs. They have no freaking respect for the in-charge. So, no one listens. And even the in-charge were late for prayer meeting. So, everything was done badly and ended so early.
DRILL: It just freaking pissed me off okay! Took stage 2 with jolene. I was so freaking nice to the contingent. Like REALLY REALLY NICE TO THEM! I gave them 3 water breaks while the others only have 2. I joke with them while they did drill, which was so freaking unlike me. Even jolene said that i was so damn lenient to them today. And what kind of attitude did they give me? So what if u guys are tired? U think we guys have not gone through such drills before? U think our commander was that lenient to us? NEVER EVER. U guys said that ur were tired, hence ur don't want to hentak. Fine. I let u guys sit down. Im being so freaking nice today that even me myself cannot believe it. Even mr teo walked past and was like: whao sheryl, im surprised that u didnt scream at them today. When ur drills isn't up to standard, i didnt even semula u all. I just continued. And occassionally, jolene will nudged me and say that their bangs are not good esp ____ then i will go like: why not u tell them? Then she says: dun want lah. Later they say i mean, u help me say. Like HALO? what do u take me for? So if i say it for u, that means people will think that im so freaking mean and u are always the nice one. Ya thanks so much. I was so stupid to not realise it till someone came up to me and brought it up to me. And so i told contingent: okay that was not a nice bang. And someone just came up to me and said that i was very mean to say that. ok so next time, i shall not say anything else. Maybe they just havent learnt that my commanders say things like: Sheryl Ho! What kind of drill is this?! Like they straight away call out ur name in front of the entire contingent to scold me. Yep. I dun embarrass anyone by calling off their names. I say on a whole. And the worst is that: i hate being used. Used just becos u need to hold ur reputation up high in the sky. And people just thinks that im plain mean becos im helping u convey ur words. So u are nice and im mean. Anyway, who cares? Mean. So? Being such 'nice' person cant get u far.
Leaders drill: sat down with chinyee. And nicole. And realised and concluded that our captain doesnt like us except for those that look so responsible. she told chinyee that she is very bad and wants her to go and die. I mean....which captain will say that just becos u dun really fancy a small girl? U cant based on her studies to foresee that she cant take on roles in cca. Come on la. Thats not the way of setting a good example. And i cant believe that in sec 1, i have always thought u were nice. Till i came to sec 2, i realised that u were so biased and basically u suck larh. Then bianca just called me over to do drill. Then i felt so happy being in a contingent. At least u dun get to see attitudes. And ya felt so relieved. At least that just calmed me down. Bianca was nice and kept joking with me like damn funny. And she gave us break and was so damn late. 6 minutes? And she ticked us off. And she was being so nice that she didnt make us do punishment. I was like heng arh......... And shannon was so freaking tired. She and rachel finally saw how fierce my commanders were to us. Yup. We can consider scolding and screaming at us as being really really lenient. Yup and then i went home.
I miss jie so much. She called yesterday and said she is leaving soon. I was like omg. And i suddenly had so many questions to ask her but i just cannot. Today's drill sucked so much. I need help from her. Many people thinks she is fierce but shes not lorh. I really need her help. i am going to bugg her after her midyears. And she is always there to help me when things have gone wrong. Now that our company is not doing well, shes not able to help becos of exams. I need her to come back soon.
Ya. So today isnt my day. It didnt go well at all.
dear lord,
i pray for a better day tomo.
in jesus name i pray, amen.

Okay, was talking to esther and sorted some feelings out. I feel so relieved now. Cos hardly can i just talk to her abt my feelings without having to think of other things. At the same time, i was trying to save her and motivate and pray for her exams. Yup. I managed to like sit down and think through what has gone wrong throughout these few days. And just tell her. And we also talked abt other stuff like : What we truely are, is when we are at home. i guess so.
To me, i behave very differntly at home and in school and even in cca.
In school, there is some sort of feelings i have to hide. In cca, there is some kind of feeling that i dun like to have but we have to have it. Like, i really dislike the feeling of rushing for everything, running and running, but thats what we are expected to do. So i feel very empty when im in cca, in the sense that i really dunno who i truly am. People may think i excel in cca, but i dun think so. Im just being used. USED to make my cca better. Many guys see the outside but whats behind is the hard work that we put in that even pfhippo doesnt even appreciate.
Then at home, is when we really are. Nothing to hide and ya...... I hardly talk at home i think.
But i like sleeping. And eating. And i know im very fat. So i guess i shall stop eating for lunch. Yup. Suddenly i felt so scared of going back to school. There is this veh scary feeling that i dread going back to school. Maybe i dont understand you now. Im not sure if you realised that i really cant relate to you any further. So maybe im leaving things as the way it is. And i dun think u realised it anyway. Im going to try relate to you once again by how u are going to treat me now i guess. Im gonna to give it a try although i know its going to be hard. And i think we need some space so...... maybe just let me sort out some stuff first before i really can go back. Thats abt all. Im going to malaysia tomo to take a break.

like last week, ryan called *hint yihua.....*
ya so he called. Then the conversation was super funny and embarrassing.
We started off quite awkwardly. and it sure was awkward.
He was like sheryl......know something......... my mom.......err no. Ok let me put it this way, how do you think of me?
Then i was like ahuh. Not sure. haha. why do you ask?
Then he was like ermmmm errmmm
then i was like why not you just go straight to the point?
Then he was like: my mom wants me to get a girlfriend.
I was like omg ahahahaahahhahahah. And i ask him: and you took it for real?
Then he said ya. She was damn freaking serious.
Then i said oh i seeeeeeeeeee.
Then i matchmaked yihua to him. ya. Arent i pro?
Then he started asking hows marcus. I was like stunned right at that moment. I mean i dunno what to say though.
yea thats abt it. The conversation was hilarious though.

im currently feeling a sense of accomplishment. Aha. I finished all the chinese projects! Aha.
Ay, not really though. But got to go through the quality check first before submitting it.
There was this chinese project on changing the lyrics of the song.
And we have to choose between the 2 songs. One from jolin tzai and another from yoga.
So obviously me and that zhu chose the yoga song. called man yi dian. Cos we had a really strong objection with jolin. Her video was yuck.
So firstly i went to listen to man yi dian. Then i was staring blankly at the computer and the bao zhi in front of me. Then i decided to copy paste the lyrics on words so that the page wouldnt look so blank. Then i was like omg how am i going to do it? huh?
Ya then i spent 3 full hours thinking of the lyrics and completing it. Although i know its filled with lots of crap in it. But at least there was some effort. You must note that i dont have a passion for changing lyrics of songs. Dont have.
Next was the chopin project. Started off quite well but in the end, i got lazier and lazier and just copy paste the whole chunk of paragraph. Hahaha. Cant blame me.....im always like that.
So now i dunno if i should continue doing some other projects. Like music.....errrr....idpw.....
Maybe i should. But maybe i shouldnt. Nvm i shall do it when i feel like doing it. ya ok set.
So now i shall go have my lunch. yeah. bye.

Finally its over. But i don't feel a difference. Maybe becos i know i didnt do well. But forget it. What is done is already done. So many things happened over the past few weeks. Have been spending most of my time studying and studying. And projects will never stop bugging me. Like one after another. Now its like a pile of projects for me to complete. Its not even one at a time now. Its A WHOLE LOT OF IT. ya. So today, stayed with shannon in school till around 6. At the same time, saw bianca and glennis and was telling glennis how much i miss her then she was like: ok i go tell bianca. haha. Then me and shannon were analysing, not gossiping but analysing. shannon was telling me its not called gossiping cos i am there and she was explaining to me that gossiping is what we call behind the back. So ya we analysed many stuff and she told me about what had happened in her family since young. Yup she was sad and i can see that disappointment in her at her parents. So just wanna tell her that its okay. i got to go do my projects now. will post again another time.