Pick myself up.

Hello guys, i've been out for the whole day. Like wow. I havent been out for the entire day for so long. Went to work and eat and shop. OWELLS, i enjoyed it. Thanks so much to liming and boyfwen:) Thanks so much for being there. And clique outing! Shannon has lotsa things on so i doubt she can make it. *inserts tons of sad faces* During lunch, had a serious talk with mom. HAIZZZZZ.... i actually think i've sighed more than 50 times today. And i was pondering alot today. Abt how in conclusion, i shouldnt have worked so hard for all subjects but actually just focusing on the main ones. Cos i just realised that no matter how poor your humans. are, they dun actually consider that and penalise us for that. Its the main ones that count. So i came to a conclusion that even you worked extra hard for all, they wouldnt reward you. They would just end up like me. Unrewarded.

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I actually promised to study really hard if my appeal gets through. But since it didnt, my motivation that drives me to work hard is now gone.

Everyone is either rejoicing or asking me for more help. TYVM. Im vexed up. Why is everyone given a second chance and why didnt i? Why? Theres no one who listens out for me. Everytime my phone rings, i hope its someone whom i can talk and just talk and the person just listens. But that doesnt happens. My phone rings for me becos i need to solve problems for people. Hello do anyone of you guys out there actually know how i feel. I doubt so. Cos if you do, you wouldnt add on to my burden. I feel stupid. Stupid for helping others and at the end of it all, i aint rewarded. Who says god sees my effort? If he did, he wouldnt have done this to me. You said god has a plan for everything. I hate his plan then. God doesnt want any of his children to be sad. But he's making me sad. I hate the school. I just heard of some bias facts of why ppl had their appeal through but i shant state it here. Theres never justice in this world. I actually hope no one is reading this cos im ranting away abt my life. I hate to do so. But i guess this is the only way to pour out everything. So what i guessed was right. unseccessful. Luckily this time round, i didnt carry a single hope with me. People were telling me not to be pessimistic and DunBeSad. Easier said than done. Just take yoursellf as me and you will know how difficult it is not to be sad.

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KENNETH! YOU ARE BACK! HAHAHAAH. OWELLS I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY MISSED HIM. HEHE.
DOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWNDOWN
Anyways, i shall stay away from the comp for the time being to continue with my homework. Just a few more before getting it done:)
BYE GUYS!

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HELLO GUYS IM BACCCKKKK! Say yay!
Anyways, it ws really cold right there and there were CLOUDS coming out of my mouth. WUUU~
And theres this incident that kept bugging my mind. This mother pulled her daughter's hair and scolded her like mad. Damn sad.
Anyways, i have something to say.
THE SCHOOL AIN'T GIVING ME ANY REPLY. THEY LEFT ME HANGING RIGHT THERE. Yes, everyone has gotten a reply from the school except me. I dun care if it wasnt successful but at least give me a reply. From all my friends, everyone got a satisfied answer. EXCEPT ME. Talked to yi hua just now and told her how disappointed i was. God has not seen my efforts and neither did he reward me anything. All my friends were rewarded. They were elated. All of them got a second chance but why am i always the one who is left hanging there??? Why?
Im tired. And seeing them so happy makes me sad. Cos no one sees my effort. Each and everyone of them are giving me high hopes. Which im afraid that in turn, it turns out to be just a false hope. Then i would just say that i had my hopes up to high that it came crashing down.
Enough about that. I will wait patiently for the letter. Although im convinced it will be unsuccessful. Shannon said the power of words will make things true. Well, its just a matter of accepting facts. Maybe, late reply = unsuccessful. i dunno. I will just wait and see. It will come one day....
Called up dionne to find out what i've missed out on today's meeting. Its all abt drill. And heard abt jolene and her funny conversation with ms heng abt ms teo. Piangeh, words do not go through her mind. HAizzz always like that.
Alrightssss i'll blog another day. Till then.

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Well, this is the last national project for the year. finally huh. I've waited for this day for so long...
Owells, of course there were problems today. since when were there no problems?
problem #1 someone forgot to bring her cap.
solution: get her maid to bring it here. Her maid flies. She reached really fast.
problem #2 someone did not turn up so i went to call......this is how it goes........
Girl: hallo?
me: may i speak to blah blah please?
girl: ya?
me: are you coming for drill test today?
girl: nooooo.
me: why not?
girl: *shivers* huh (then hangs up the phone)
No comments -.-
Reached st hilda's and practiced. terrible much. Well, i taught my best. The rest were actually up to them.
So i took ds 2 for 2 contingents whereas lucky others only assessed one.
I guessed everything went well. And i saw someone who resembles so much like dav. koh. So alike. The way they talked, their actions, drills, posture, face, voice. must be long lost twins or something.
Was really tired and i kept using my clipboard to press on my stomach as i had cramps.
Ended and went to compass with the rest.
i like the bus ride to and fro. Jolene took a video of me whining. She kept laughing at me.
We went to eat and talked abt some interesting stuff.
Then i went home. I need to pack cos im leaving tomo morning.
I will be away till next tuesday.

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I didnt get to see the meteor shower yesterday. :(

I was made to call up about 11 girls to remind them about zonal drill test tomo. And apparently ms heng gave me rachel LIM's no. instead of rachel LEONG's one. So i just threw my face on the phone becos i thought all the no.'s were reliable sources and i have been calling up many girls without any problems. So here's how the mistaken identity conversation goes...........
me: may i speak to rachel please?
R: yes speaking.
me: hey rachel (whom i thot was leong), im sheryl YOUR GB SENIOR. *facepalm*
R: huh sheryl my GB senior?
me: ya, sheryl ho YOUR GB SENIOR (yes i repeated that) *double facepalm*
R: SHERYL HO? oh ok why?
me: rmb that tomo there's zonal drill test. you going right?
R: huh? why am i going? i didnt know i have to go.
me: cos i think you failed stage one right?
R: Huh?! Where got. Im rachel LIM.
me: OH MY GAWD. Why didnt you tell me earlier??? im so sorry.
R: its okay, SHERYL GB SENIOR *jokes around*
So both of us laughed and laughed at our stupid mistaken identity.
And yi hua just told me something that i found really interesting. And i didnt know that lor. You will get hungry faster when you are having menses??? I didnt know that.......wow
And we were talking about all sorts of things. Abt baking cake over at her house to eating sakae sushi to making our own sheryl-yihua sushi to the cool facebook trick to whether we prefer to study overseas cos shes ang moh pai to anything possible to talk abt on earth. HAHA didnt talk to her for sooooo long. Owells tap tap. (yihua, you should know what im talking abt) and C :D
Owells, downed for drill test tomo. I hope it goes well. Last minute revision is a must.
And i shall go pack my uniform now. Polish boots while watching the tv tonight.
AND I'LL BE AWAY FROM SAT TILL TUES. will be back soon. Dun miss me.
See ya guys'
LOVE,
SHEWYL

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I want to go!!!! But i'll be out of Singapore....Haizzzz. Damn suey. I shall wait for next year's one. *inserts thousands of sad faces*
And just now, theres this boy whom i do not know who the hell is he. Talked to me. Whalao damn scary. I didnt respond at all. HAHA.
Instead, talked to jie abt next year's cca fair. AGAIN. So fast yeah. So we have to plan creative drill again. 1 year just passed so fast. Alrights, im going out. BUHBYE.

Piangeh. Today when i was on the way back from my ma's office, there was this cheekopek who touched my hand. Nope, not that song. Ya, he touched my hand okay. OMG LUH. I feel like slapping him can? ARGH forget it. I shall be nice and just walk faster. His freaking face is like soooooo EEEEEEEYURRRRR. OH MA GAWD.
OWELLS, my neck is hurting. Ma says its becos i never sleep properly. SIGH...

Im rushing homework. Cos my ma wants me to finish all my homework by today. Which is quite impossible huh. But i'll try to finish at least a few:D
And im done with 3. Lots more to go.
Till then.

Its only now till i realise how a useless person i was. Im a failure at everything.

I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.
NICE ONE!

Its nice to be important but its more important to be nice
I LIKE THIS PHRASE ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT:DDDDD Heh heh

HELLO it looks sunny today. Ok good, i hope it is :D
Blog more another day....

OH MA GAWD IM SO BOREDDDDDDDD........................
Maybe i should start on something productive. Yes, holiday homejoy. :)

Woke up at 7.30 for nyaa. I love the trip to Jurong. It was so long that i had a nice nap though. A freaking 1 hour plus bus ride. Reached there and felt super cold. And there we were at superbowl, feeling supercold and beside us were super spa. HAHA. Noelene was suaning me abt striking for the first time for today. WTH. And alvina had lotsa food. Well brenda is in korea enjoying life. Well i must say this last bowling session was quite fun.
Trip to bishan was funny to the max. SAW MRS RAMESH ON THE BUS. WTH RIGHT? HAHAHAH we even pulled up our socks sia.
And i 'played hide and seek' in J8. =P

Hey~ HALLO im so bored. And im finally well cos my fever has finally subsided. YAY.
HAHA will blog soon. And im still waiting for liming's blog to be open:D