After getting back our eoy results, many cried. I guess they had high expectations of themselves and bcos of that, whenever something failed themselves, they feel the pain as the more confident u are, the more pain it is. I am not really satisfied with my results either. Honestly speaking. I went home and totaled up everything and what i got was always B3. So i told myself its okay bcos i will try harder next year. And the lowest of all the subjects was only B4 so theres honestly nothing more for me to crave for more than that. People cried. And when i see the state of them, i want to tell them that results is not everything as its just part and parcel of life and most importantly, just work hard and god will give u whatever that u actually deserve to get. So its okay. Next year, just try harder and god will actually sees it.
Yesterday, i was having high fever. But no one actually knows. As i told them that i was just a little sick but i got headache throughout the whole day and i was really tired of everything. Seeing my results just makes the condition worse. No one knows of it so they do not understand how tired i was. It was 39.4 degrees so ya.... but after school, i still have to go for cca. It ended so late and i was really tired. During devotion, ms seah talked about how god has plan our life for us and he had planned the best of us. So we just have to follow to wherever god leads us to and continue with our life no matter how hard it is. She asked us if who was very satisfied with her own results and i guess there were 2 who raised up their hands. Then she asked if who thinks that she is already satisfied with her results and more raised. Then she asked who was disatisfied with the results, so i raised with many more. Then she asked who was really very disatisfied with the results and one particular girl raised. Okay drill was fun. So i think that stage 2 drill was fun. As seniors came to teach and when kekenan lurus, justina came and shake her butt and i cant stand it but laugh and she did it in front of me. So i remembered it was tunda bernanda yangtingi kekenan pandan kekeri jaligan satu baris sampas. And after drill, i somehow miss drill and okay after drill, ms koh came to talk to us about joining drill competition. So i gave it a thought and why theres just something that bothers me a lot.
1) i miss my own contingent
2) no one is joining with me
3) just practically dun think i will be happy with the people in drill competition as u know...i dun like them...they are too proud and my seniors think so and they start asking if they are very sucker. Yi hua ask her what is sucker and that her replied was suck up....suck down.
4) I just dun feel safe maybe becos that no one is joining wif me
5) my mother dun really approved of saturday training and u see... trainings are on tuesdays, thursdays, fridays and saturdays. Unless rachel is willing to go wif me
6) i am just really not sure.
Maybe i shall think it through as maybe it will save 4th coy cos if we were to quit from the competiton, we will never get the chance to get a gold for the company ever again. And thats really sad. And the people in drill competition have attitude problem and this was quoted from the seniors so i dun think i will be very happy to be in the contingent. But i will think it through.